yo, another one of my late-night-can't-sleep blog posts.
recently I've contemplated some stuff about worthy and unworthy, deserving and undeserving. 
what's worth giving for and what's not.
what's worth the wait and what's not. 
what's worth to be given unconditionally. 

needless to say, if you, the one reading this right now, have the same frequency as me...you'd know the topic of tonight's late night discussion. if not..I'll leave it undisclosed, for you to figure out yourself (= clue: the word is on my facebook status.

these days..some stuffs made me contemplate against my recent (but not that recent) judgment. It causes quite a hectic battle in my head that made me question some stuffs. furthermore, it's not helping that I've heard a strange news from my friend quite recently, about 2-3 weeks ago and it highly clouded my thoughts and judgments -.- . there is one side of me that wants me to go away, farawayyy and run away. one cowardy little side. and these days I was on that puny little side that made me feel a little off-balance at times. thank God these do not affect my studies :))

geez, you kno what, I kinda lose my focus rn. decided that I prefer typing using my almost-crashed but good, old blackberry and the next time I have one of those can't sleep blog posts I'm just gonna logged in to blogger using my blackberry instead. teeheeeeee

goodbye. 


oh, actually all I want to say is that I've decided to follow my own heart instead of my clouded thoughts and judgement. and what's worth it is worth the pain too. there's no victory without some sufferings...I guess. And that recently, I've thought that there are some stuffs that are just not worth giving any effort to...but then I've overcome that thought too. :)) I know myself pretty well that I'll still give my 100% and I just need to convince myself that I can give my 100% because I received 101% from God. Well really, no matter what the setback seems, I'll give my 100% ((:


Love,
Rieka

♥ 2:01 AM

to tell people 'someone cares'
we need to be the 'someone' who cares
we can't be an ambassador for an idea or a movement if we don't have the slightest parallel with it

we can't say, 'someone' here refers to only Jesus. Jesus wants to use us, who have received, to be a channel of blessings to give. we need to move beyond the event and to inculcate this into our lives. 'someone cares' is more than just an event. when you tell people 'someone cares', do you really care? do you see yourself as that 'someone' who cares?

before that, have you really experienced 'someone' who cares? to truly see..how much God cares and loves us..that He sent His beloved Son, Jesus, to free us from the bondage of sins so that we may experience eternal life.

if so, I believe you've been to called to be 'someone' who cares. to be an advocate for our generation, to fight for God and with God in Spirit and in Truth. to be a medium that channels God's grace and loving kindness...to the people around you who need to feel that love that you have received from God.

receive more each day, His annointing..
receive more from Him so that we can reach out to the young people around us..and share God's love with them.

Love,
Rieka

♥ 1:41 AM

yoz, tryna blog using  my blackberry browser rn! Not the first time but the layout and stuffs are different from then. ((:

It's late night random decision to dcide to blog, but I just feel like doing so all of a sudden.
So...youth night had been amazing man! I can confess that it's really one of the best times ever since i'm in this church. That feel, that love i experienced was the same as the time God brought me back to His love, His house and His embrace. it is the very feeling I get when i accepted Jesus Christ as my personal saviour ((:
It's like falling in love at the beginning..

It's like falling in love with somebody..at the beginning you just can't contain that feeling inside you. The euphoria you get at the mention of their names or simply at the thought of them being part of your life. The feeling is indescribable and you just want to be in their presence all the time. That is how it was the first time I accepted Christ, feeling that love which is so overwhelming and beautiful (: it's like the honeymoon period of being in relationship for human beings, everything is beautiful and hopeful and lovely. Ahh..I really like the word lovely, it comprises of loved and beautiful (:
God's love is lovely to me.
During youth night..I experienced that same love again!!! It's just different...you know. For human beings, you can be in love with someone but idk if you can feel the same feelings w someone as time passed. with God, I'm amazed that He made me feel that way, the very same way He did 3 years ago. In fact, it is around this time 3 years ago that I joined the great Bethany Church Singapore family (: I'm like a 3 years old girl, thank God so much for this church...looking back, I can see how much I have grown ((: I enjoyed the youth ministry so much, thank God (: and truth to be told, I really love the interactions w the other young people from different homogeneous groups. Everyone's so passionate about God, so awesome! truly, I feel a sense of strong unity among the young servants of God that night and day after. truly, all credit to God for His grace and loving kindness can produce such a fruitful, beautiful results. ((:

This generation has hope. This generation will be used by God to do His heavenly work. This generation will rise up and reach out to people and impact this community!

All glory to God alone ;)

With Love,
Rieka

♥ 2:00 AM

that was a huge step I just took, something that I never would've expected myself to do ever ever. 
say, last year, I don't even think it will ever come across my mind nor even my imagination. 

afterall, it's only through God's grace and for the glory of Jesus. 

afterall, I am nothing without Jesus. 

and to top it up, just a reminder for myself,,, to focus on God and not on the enemy and not on myself. 

just focus on God. 


in life, things don't always turn out the way you want them to be. that shouldn't stop you from having a desire. 

just.. delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desire of your heart. 

♥ 6:44 PM

I REALLY REALLY WANNA CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN ALREADY! UGH.

♥ 11:15 AM

I was just about to browse through people's blog and read them up when I decided that it's really been some time since I really create something. Anything. Make something using my hands, write down things that are products of my random thinking or just any any random things that I wanna do. Especially so in the writing parts. Well...I did wrote something a few weeks ago after a beautiful encounter with God and asked a friend if he wants to transform it into a song since this particular friend of mine has such a talent in music. So I sent him and 2 weeks have passed and there are no feedback yet but I don't fret much about that. People are busy with their own things to do too. Well I am supposed to be busy studying for exam but I have officially diagnosed myself with PETSD = Post-Essays Traumatic Stress Disorder related to 2 weeks cramming of essays and my brain might as well be too fried to do anything and the burnt out I consider prolonged since it's been a week since my last submission so I can officially made a diagnoses of my condition! ahhhhh! But exams is in what, less than a month's time! And it's gonna last like what, 2 freaking weeks! very tempted to rant about it more but remembered that when I created this blog when I was 13, I've decided not to make this blog a ranting blog. 13! I made this blog almost 7 years ago! :O cheers to 7 years of bloggership. Not like people actually read this blog anymore, I reckon. I haven't been posting much things here too and in a way people are more interested in reading personal blogs of other people when we're all in secondary schools and JC and beyond that, people only read your blog if you're some famous blogger who offers cool insights and ideas. either that or they are people who are really close to you who bothers reading up random or nonsensical or totally out of the world stuff that you write here.

ok this post is totally, totally random and unstructured and even I don't get what I have just written if I bother reading it back but there you go, a random post out of nowhere. hah!

♥ 7:22 PM

2nd of April everyone! We have amazingly arrived at the 2nd quarter of 2013! 

♥ 7:30 PM