" the grass is always greener on the other side"
I was sitting by the table, having my meal alone once again. This time, it was breakfast.
This time, I was having nasi kuning bought from the neighbour 3 doors to the right.
This time, I was pondering about certain things.
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I thought about how we all ought to be grateful about everything that have been given to us.
Well, initially this thought came about as I was comparing myself with someone who appear to have the perfect family condition, to me at least. How some people whose house consist of a small nuclear family is able to have more time with their family together, be closer and stuffs.
My family itself is consider quite big for a modern nuclear family consisting of my dad, mom, 3 little siblings( whatever, they're always little to me) and myself . In the house, we stay with our grandparents, a little cousin whom my mom 'adopted' , another cousin whom my grandma 'adopted' , 2 maids and a guy-helper who kinda take care of my currently sick grandfather. In the afternoon, my uncle's family usually come and play with us, that adds on another woman and 2 rowdy, naughty boys. All in all,,,, I don't even bother counting how many people are there in the house.
Anyhow, I shan't brood over how seemingly little time I spend with my family because I myself don't like large crowds. But I'll share a little about an insight I gained over my breakfast this morning:
Maybe till today/last night, I've always thought that I'd rather stay in a house with small nuclear family, mom as a housewive and dad who's not always travelling. And sometimes, I'm just... feeling really unappreciative and ungrateful. But I realized something after last night (which I reviewed this morning during breakfast) That we function with things/situations/people/environment that has been thrown to us, but we ought to be humble and be grateful about it!
A perfect scenario I could think of is the quality time I had with my mom last night while she was having dinner and I was about to take my medication. So seeing my mom dining alone, I approached her and sit beside her. So we talk about a great deal of stuffs, adding on to the list of 'things I know but pretend not to know'. But the content of the short half an hour conversation was great. I am really grateful for that short half an hour. And I'm satisfied. I don't need to have this everyday, but a once-in-a-while kind of quality time is enough for me.
So I thought, those people with a small, nuclear family may spend a lot of time together, but not neccessarily quality time. They may see each other 24/7 a day but probably, as they see each other so frequently, the took it for granted and became ungrateful about it. So..I'm pretty happy when I discovered this :)
It's like another stepping stone I acquired, another step to getting to know life better.
haha!
that's that peeps.
I know I haven't been blogging too much recently, it's the case of writer's block. As I'm writting this post down, I have difficulty sorting out sentences and sequences too, so pardon me if it's not satisfying. I will try to write more often in this little space here, my next post is probably gonna be on motivation/my family.
stay tunes!
sugar,spice and all thing nice.