something I learned from a fictional autistic boy, Christopher.
" But in life you have to take lots of decisions and if you don't take decisions you would never do anything because you would spend all your time choosing between things you could do. So it is good to have a reason why you hate some things and why you like others."
Once you made up your mind upon a decision and have a reason for it, things became easy and reasonable and logical. Everything you do after that are based on the decision that you have made. It is easy because we don't know if we never make the decision, we might not know if we will like what comes along next. I wish I could be like that too, where everything I do follow the decisions I made. If things could be that easy for Christopher, then it could be too for me, right? A decision is like a leap of faith where you don't know what the decision will bring you to but it is better to decide than waste your time not deciding but keep on pondering about it.
but there is this thing called emotion that Christopher never consider about. How come, emotion seems like a hindrance or a barrier or a plug that stops things from flowing the way the decision has been made. And emotion caused people to be fickle minded because no emotion last forever.
♥ 1:27 AM
this time, I'll declare that I'll not rely on my own strength
not depend on myself
not be controlled by my emotion
not take over what should be God's role.
this time, I'm giving it back to God
letting God take over
abandon all my fleshly desire and habits and let him take control.
this time,
please take over, God.
♥ 10:28 PM