Some people's blog are really motivational to read. It reminded me of my objective to choose this path instead of the other, more appealing one.

Recently there have been so many distractions both inside me and around me. Lack of motivation and a sense of complacency have obstructed the path to reaching my dream. Then I came across this blog of someone which talk about how he overcome the same problem I'm currently facing and it dawned on me that if he can do it then why can't I? It's been pretty long since I really thought about what I really want. People surrounding me have been asking many questions as such and all I gave were brief, unspecific answers. It's time I should really consider about the future and not just focus on temporary gratification. (:


CLASS CHALET YESTERDAY! =D
A few of us went to support our classmate Darrell for the Singapore Can Speak semifinals. Though he didn't make it into finals but well done Darrell! (: It's very courageous if you ask me, standing on the stage in public and speaking to so many people. :/ I don't think I will ever have the confidence to do so. Lol. So right after that we took train to Tampines and meet the rest of our classmates and head down to the chalet. At first we checked out the rooms upstairs and there's like this scary looking mirror and the guys keep on making fun of it. LOL. Robin painted his fingers with my purple nail polish xD We were suppose to have dinner at hawker but some of us thought it was scorching hot so we went subway instead :P Then back to chalet again to play cards, gossip and celebrated Lucas Tan's birthday ! We made a video for Ms.Young :P Took many pictures, then go home! (:

LOVES
RIEKA
ps.good luck for all taking O levels MT tmr!!!

♥ 8:57 PM

♥ 11:38 PM

Flu+ cough+ headache is never a nice combination yeah?


You said move on,
Where do I go?

I have a place to go now, myself (:

Byebye, I've moved on.

As much as gw masih sering mikirin kamu,
gw akan berhenti membuat diri sendiri tertekan. ^^


I experienced blithe yesterday where I can be myself and just forget about trying to be proper in front of someone else. Nope, no facade, nothing. Ages since I've been that carefree about others p.o.v of me. I know I don't need to try too hard, everything will just work ^^

So Sentosa yesterday was interestingly fun. In a sense of fun that I don't use to describe other matters. Like, it doesn't really comes under the normal sense of fun, but it's still considered to be fun. :P Rarely can I act myself without the presence of my closest friends. Yet somehow I did so. :D :D I love the view from sentosa. Everything! The sunset photos were magnificent! I'll upload the ones from my phone and thy's camera. ^^

): I've been purposelessly happy for the past few days. Now I really want to find a purpose to be happy in school. Because recently there seems to be none. T-T

I'm so sorry if you think that I'm cold to you in school today. I wasn't ! I thought you were the one who were kinda avoiding me... ): If you read this, I hope you know I'm referring to you. Plus we haven't talked that much recently, as much as we do last time. Somehow I miss those times. ): I'm just feeling unwell that's why I didn't talk as much in school today. Sorry! ^^


I've given up too much for things that are actually insignificant..
I know what you meant. I understand them now. I'm sorry...

♥ 11:35 PM

RiekaErina is happy. titik. :D

♥ 11:17 PM

I just had a HTHT with Maruay about certain stuffs that are bothering me a little. (:
Thank you thank you ! =D
It was a great catching up! ^^

♥ 3:17 AM

I got almost 12 hours of sleep,
and ended up being more exhausted throughout the day!
WTH is wrong with my body!! T-T

Guitar concert today =D
Darrell's Singapore Can Speak Competition.
Gratz Darrell for getting into Semi-finals !!!
Will really try to come around earlier next week so as not to miss your speech again like today!
Yay Issac and Zainal for the wonderful performance which worth the $6 :P And Xuefang's really cool! OMG! Didn't know that he can be so cool...... xD

I sat on the bus alone.
Out of the window,
I stare.
Reminisce.

The part left hollow.
Where there were once,
Your company.
Empty.

Velocity in one direction.
Inability to follow,
Left out.
Gone.




Im just writting a bunch of crap ^^

I miss you,
I miss your smile.

=D

Btw,,,
http://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.php?pid=4210099&id=183763014863&ref=mf

Like it please.. ;)
Thankyy..

♥ 1:38 AM

I miss you, I really do.
It may not seems that way because I didn't show it but you don't know how much you meant to me for the past few years. And it's not easy to just let you slip away from my life, just like that. But it's even harder to express it, but I really miss you!!! AHAHAHAHA! =D Guess who you are (: Whenever it's pouring thunderstorm in the middle of the night I will remember you. ((:


Finally, an event solved, edurace. One less thing to take care of.
Oh, now GPP then. T-T
But right now, I'm going to get my rest. Ages since I last slept properly.
):

Thank you Lord for giving me the strength to keep hanging on throughout the whole day and the whole of edurace. I expected myself to die halfway, but I survived ^^

Thanks everyone who has helped out in the edurace this afternoon and being part of the making of our edurace booth. =D The whole process have been very enjoyable, even more so than the edurace itself.

A burden lifted off my shoulder, yay!


So good, they can go Bible camp. ):

♥ 1:03 AM

Things to do today:
1. Econs essay
2. Econs cottonomics
3. Case study for GPP
4. Instruction for Edurace
5. Information about wedding of different ethnicity for Edurace

awesome, right?

♥ 11:36 PM

T-T
Im so tired but Idk why I just feel like blogging. Hm. Maybe it's the kinda feeling you get from typing. You know, the kind where it made you feel like you're actually doing something constructive. Even though in this case I won't say so.

Supposedly studying, I spent the whole evening wasting my time. Im probably in a too tired condition to study anyway yet didn't want to take a nap. So here I am half-dead-half-alive typing this blog post which is going nowhere.

Recently I just though of this. I can't convey most of my thoughts in blog, yet ironically it is the only platform in where I can put down all my thoughts. Like apart from the more private stuffs it is where I want to share my sentiments and opinion about many various things. However I always end up focusing on the emoticons I use and the color of the post or even the number of ' lol ' I use. In which later on, I find all my blog posts superficial and shallow. Ahahahahaa.

Speaking of shallowness, recently I've been thinking deeply about certain stuffs. Maybe not so deep. Hmm, I've been thinking shallowly about a certain shallow stuffs. But ah, it is not so much concerning me as how the 3 test this week concerns me. Damn it. -.-


What have you seen,
what have you seen?

♥ 11:33 PM

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
I can practically die. almost died. nearly died....yesterday!!!!
seriously. hyperventilated like.....AHHHHHHHHHHH!
how could anyone on earth be so incredibly...... ._. Im speechless. Kai'en and I were.....stunned.
AHHH!!!
Red, black bag shoebag.
(:
Suddenly anything red looks so appealing to me :P
well except for 1. which is the ultimate opposite of.... xD
ahahahahahaha!
RED !!!!

=P

♥ 1:02 PM

Hehehe. Pics from Sunday.



tadahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

That's that xD

♥ 8:29 PM

Rieka tadi pagi mimpi. Mimpinya bikin pusinggggg bgt ):
Kok bisa Rieka mimpiin ttg itu lagi. Pdhl udah lamaaaa
._.
spagian bt banget gara2 hal itu. ): kalau tau dia bakal mimpi ttg itu mendingan dia jgn bangun subuh dan tidur lagi ==" mendingan gak usah bangun sumbuh! Tapi syukurlahhhhh. Tuhan memberikanku kekuatan untuk bertahan. Terima kasih Tuhan. (: Kalau aja aku gak balik ke sisiMu lagi, pasti sekarang ini aku lgi membenci diri sendiri. membenci hidupku dan berangan2 ttg hal yg gak mungkin tercapaikan lgi. haha. Pasti beda bgtttttt!

Im lucky I took this path.

^^v

Today's physics test was totally a disaster. With no mood and no energy to study the night before. HOW!!!!!!!! T-T After doing that test I feel so inspired to study Physics suddenly. I meannnnnnn, seriously . It's not like I can't do but I was so so so not focus during the test. After discussing the answers with Mr.Lee I found so many many careless mistakes, not reading the questions or the choices correctly. And forgetting a formula T-T No second time.

~
So sports day yesterday was... I wish I pon-ed and stay at home and sleep. I feel so sleepless despite sleeping at 10++ ytd. Ahhhhhh! But had fun looooooooking around at somewhereeeeee red :P
And OH took many many photos using Jonathan's DSLR ^^ Jonathan better upload them soon! xD I LOVEEEEEEEE taking pictures. (:

How how how? T-T
So many things to do, so little time. And the timing overlaps ):

♥ 6:45 PM

something very very very important that I have learned from the past few years and just came across it in a facebook fan page,

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.


((:

The only guy I want to get involve in right now, is Jesus.

♥ 8:39 PM

Hi Best Friend! (:
It has been pretty long since we last talked...or chatted properly. ):
I miss that so much!
Things have changed so much since we last met.. Many things happened, feelings come and go. But always, always, through the thick and thin and not so good time I know I have a person I can always count on whenever I need to which is you(:
Whenever I think back I really have no idea how did this little little friendship can grow into something big like this :P I don't know what to call it, but others call it fate I guess?
I'm reminiscing all our good times. Fooling around like crazy during Ms.Faridah's geography class in Sec1. I remember sitting beside you and there was an ugly, yucky lizard on the wall next to us! How crazy we were to scream during Geog :P And sitting behind Louis and Lipkoon, always observing lipkoon put stapler bullet on Louis's hair. Haha! Also how we found Louis scary-looking. And the crush that developed soon after that :P Haha! I remember you told me over msn on a Friday. xD I have good memory! Then soon G.U.R.L.S were formed. OMG. Pretty childish yeah? Then all the SAs which we spent in library with our dearest Uncle Lee! Helping him do all the librarian jobs instead of studying for our Exams. =P Remember that stupid song about SARS which played on the radio one evening? We laughed like crazy!!! Hahaha~ Then comes the holidays where we went back to our countries. That year I attended your band concert! ((: I remember how excited we were to see each other that day after your concert! Like we ran to hug each other, rmb? :D And of course I can never forget getting A form on that fateful day... XDXD 19!!!!!!!
Then sec2 start..At the beginning we were kinda segregated because you had to prepare for SYF and we were closer to other girls at that moment and boys that came into our lives. Aw, thinking back how I wish we spent more time with each other at that time. And so far, whenever you mentioned about going to Canada I've never take it too seriously hence I never imagined how life will be like ._. Sec2 must've been the best year in my life! Having a great form-teacher like Mrs.Ng and Co-form like Ms.Moo. How we always make so much noise during lesson till Mrs.Ng have to separate us and I sat beside Lupseng while you sit beside Weiting. And all the undone maths homework by Ms.Tan which till now I regret not doing coz I feel so bad for her !! bleahhhhhs. The clique we formed in Sec2, the very fun people whom I have never thought would become a big part of my life. =D All the songs we always sing on the way to everywhere! Like walking from lab to class etc. "I believe, i believe in love.and like the stars above, shine let it shine over me" :P I MISS THOSE A LOT!


9/5/10
==" I actually blogged this halfway and now i kinda lose what I wanted to write that day.
But Hey Best Friend, I Love You ((:
I really miss you, many many ! ♥

LOVESSSSSSSS
RIEKA

♥ 12:27 AM

Ahhhhhhhhhh~

Im in a good mood today(:

The heart-skip-a-beat feeling wasn't there just now.
Baguslah kalau begitu.
akhirnya...bener gak? ._.

Yesterday was so fun ! =P somethin' something ^^
I kinda love playin' that game, yeah.

I went Pizzahut with Jiamin loves and Dheenah babe! :P Wanted wanted wanted to ponten CCA but Jiamin persuaded me to go. So yeah, in the end I didn't regret going. ^^ Kinda, sorta, meaningful. Didn't sleep that much today. Awwww. I wannna sleep sleep and sleeep all daeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

So long since I last talked to you, BF. AHHHHH! MISS YOU ♥

BTW, don't insult me people, I can study even though I don't look like Im make to study =="
Gonna beat you in SA.
Watch out., awassss xD

Oh wait, Rieka. How about that goal you have yet to achieve?
Soon to be done (:

♥ 11:10 PM

I TOOK BUS 59, FELL ASLEEP ON THE BUS AND GO ALL THE WAY TO BISHAN!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAA ! XDXDXD Can see how tired I am today?! Slept THROUGHOUT the maths lecture too today. Almost slept during Econs, and slept during PW . Ahhhhhhhhh! Almost slept while running during PE too. =="
Im super, uber tired, exhausted, dizzy and sleepy. But once I reach home I can't sleep anymore. Geez. ):

Ok! gonna continue blogging after im back from dinner =P

toodles guys! :D

♥ 5:58 PM

This is the video (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FH8WAoRL1xo

Very very sweet!
But it's all the past ):
But still makes me feel like crying whenever I watch it so that's why I don't watch it. ._.
I was so touched when _ showed me the video laaaaaa.

♥ 11:55 PM

I feel like deleting all my blog posts!
omg T-T
HAHAHAHA

OK! so i shall stop this microblogging thingy and present a proper post. Meanwhile, Jiamin is on her way to my place :P

This week once again past soooooo fast. It has been an eventful week. Like what, I miss the bus for 2 consecutive days ==" Ended up taking cab with Andre on tuesday and reached super early. And on wednesday we took MRT and reached school at 9.10 HAHAHAHA! Furthermore it was chem for first period xD Ms.Ong was giving out some award to " most spontaneous, punctual and attentive " students. Teo Chiayin got all3 !!! LOL. Ms.Ong also gave me this kitty pouch for helping her as a Chem rep. ._. I feel so guilty! ._.

Friday 10S28 had a farewell BBQ for Ms.Young. it was fun !!!
I went to Jiamin's house before that and fell asleep on her bed. Lolol :P AND SOMEONE HOR! MAKE US TAKE THE WRONG BUS AND WALK UNDER THE HOT SUN FOR 10 MINUTES~! =="
you know who you are.
Most of the time before the BBQ start I was using Darrell's cam to take pics and gossiped with Chinaboy. HAHA! Gossiping about our class is kinda funnnnnn =P especially about a certain blahblah who act cute xDDD and a chapter in physics.
Then start cooking thhe fooooooooood. I love BBQ-ing! =P
burnt the first batch of satay though. Didnt knoww Bing bing bing so pro at cooking eh!!! Experienced siaaaaaaa.
Ms.Young came kinda late but she adds up the fun! :P Hehe.
We ate, took pictures, talked and played truth or dare. Aw. I kinda regretted spilling that secret off mine because Im afraid I just left a very bad impression of me to you guys 10S28 )): But I changed already ok. ^^
Left at 11.35 and reached interchanged when the last train and last bus to toapayoh have left =.=
No choice, took 58 to Bishan interchange then cab there! LOL. Long bus ride was so boring and lucky JJ sms me! :D

Hey Jacob don't take it too seriously, seriously! ._. It's just me over-dramatizing my life. Haha! =P Don't think toooooooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh into itttttttttttttttttttt ! ;P
konsentrasi buat ujianmu. Ganbatte!

Weekends was quite packed, but no time to tell them all nowwwwwwwwwww, Jiamin's reaching in 10 mins time!!! :P

toodles you guys! :D

L,
Rieka

♥ 11:21 AM

I'm watching enchanted.
I didn't know that listening to that song again, will make me feel so...sad.
It makes me think of you again.

So close to reaching, that famous happy ending.


I don't want to admit this but..
gw masih kangen sekali dgn kamu.

♥ 9:10 PM

& i wna be reflector.




I feel like deleting this blog because of all the posts that i written before.
ew.

♥ 11:52 PM