do you really believe? all that I said yesterday?
hmm.
do you believe me when I said a problem is only a problem when you think that they're a problem. do you believe me when I said I'm problem-free? I'm problem-free when I apply that theory (:
do you believe that I actually apply them?
I said so many things I don't actually tell people, you might not know me as the person I was yesterday.

:/

I wanna go that place again, it makes me feel so much better. do you believe if I really, really think that yesterday was a really, really great day.
I feel so stress free. it's my 4th favorite place in singapore already ^^
haha!

anyway, it's saturday. this morning, a saturday morning, it was raining. nope, it wasnt pouring. it's those gloomy rainy day where you dont hear thunder or see lightnings. it's sorta like the mod that rainymood.com gives, minus the sounds of thunder. yeah, it's sorta familiar. it's like that time. it brings back something that has been gone for so long long time. it reminds me of this time last year. those few weeks, those few saturdays were raining this rain too.

♥ 11:25 PM

someone asked me this question somewhen this week. "you spent so much time w me, and not much w them, are you sad?" hmm. Actually, not really, I feel fine. What makes me sad? I don't talk to my best friend as much as I did.

♥ 12:42 AM

I can be tough, I can be strong; but with you, it's not like that at all

My favorite song from Goodbye Lullaby is wish you were here(: but right now, I don't have anyone to wish to be here with me. what can I do to make more time for myself? I never like blogging about my feelings, perhaps that's why my blog is so boring and mundane. blogskins. I've been wanting to change them since mid of last year but I never did it ._. if only I have time to do it.

a few minutes ago, I just did something I really like that I haven't been doing for a long long time. i ran through michellephan's makeup videos. hey people out there, if you don't like her then don't comment on her videos and say mean things to her. ): just shuddups man.

today last year, was totally different from this year. or, was it?

♥ 8:26 AM

Dear girls,
do not shed tears for guy but instead let them cry for you.
for girls give and forgive and guys get and forget.

this is such an absolute statement, but I am so obsessed with it! get and forget. hah! sounds like someone. let me share my thought for the day. "good things are worth waiting for" From experienceS, I must be one person who ought to understand this statement the most. So at the moment I am really crazy over this thing call the ballads of mona lisa. I want to listen to it every single minute of the day. Like I get eargasm each time I listen to it. HAHA! However, someone promised me something even better, not just the ballad of mona lisa but the whole package. And I'm getting it in a few weeks time since it's not out in Singapore yet. Vices & Virtues. So each time I thought of it, I tell myself not to go listen to the song yet because I know that if I give in to my desire to listen to it each time, I will probably get tired of it already by the time I got my vices and virtues and I will not enjoy it as much as I could. (:

Right now, I shall slowly indulge myself in my goodbye lullaby!

because she's not rieka.

♥ 10:01 PM

I want to capture the beauty of aurora before I die (:
be motivated, rieka. strive hard to achieve your dreams. last national exam, might as well do my best and not regret.
you know, sometimes I feel that we're just an insignificant part of this whole system of the universe. we're merely specs of dust in comparison with the massiveness of the world. and I just feel like being random. haha ^^
take care, getwellsoon(:

♥ 10:17 PM

really, really, couldn't believe how surreal yesterday was. I couldn't stop thanking God for all that happened. It was so amazing. Even a few weeks before the release of pw results, I was already very freaking nervous. I was afraid of what I'll get for pw. As I told someone the day before the release of the results. "my groupmates are expecting me to get an A, but I know I wont get an A. But with the effort I've put in I really really want to get an A. this feeling sux. " you know how this sentence keeps on haunting me throughout the night. ): it's so dumb of me to let fear take over. fear is irrational. now I learnt to put my trust in the Lord. He has His plan for me(:




my motto still applies: if you want something, so badly that you put all of your mind into wanting it, you will get it. to a great extent, this applies very much for my grade. But now I realized, it's not the grade at all that matters. I talked to tcy about a lot of things on the process of doing our project last year, all the good memories. And the night before i talked to Jeremy about it too. I realized it's the good times during the creation of our project that I will remember the most. No matter how terrible and stressful, I really really enjoyed being with TP154. If I were to choose, it is one of the most significant thing in my JC life. I've learned so much things during the process, no grade can contain the amount of lessons I've learned. I really, really thank God for giving me this pw group, they are amazing. You know what? Our group mates are the ones with the most differing personalities, if you know us. Yet during the times when we were rushing our project, we bonded a lot and found joy in all the troubles. TP154, you guys are amazing. (:





Dear Father, I thank you for this grade that you have given me. It is so amazing, knowing that You have a plan for me Lord. For the first time in my life, I feel a tangible achievement. Thank you Father, nothing else can contain how I feel, apart from the grace that You have given me. Not just the grade Lord, I also want to thank You for this experience, the whole journey of being with TP154. Father your plan for me is indeed so wonderful, I've learned so much from it. No words can describe how grateful I am to You Lord. Thank you Father for the miracles you put in my life. Let me grow more in your Lord, teach me how to put all of my trust in Your hand for only you can give me strength. In Jesus name, amen.

♥ 9:39 AM

I managed not to use my laptop for 1week plus! (y) what a great achievement. This is like last year, after getting midyear results. Almost nostalgic. :/ I hope this time round will be the last time I got disappointed at my results. No more hurting yourself with disappointment, rieka! :D Everything's been busy and well, pretty good. I know well that I can't appease anyone, so just let them be :P you know there's something about love that makes you go..HAHAHAHAHA

♥ 9:54 PM