It amazes me when people takes up the effort to start a conversation with me(:
even though there seems to be no specific content to talk about, it might lead you to...getting a P!ATD album :P If that person is randomly feeling like giving prezzie. ^^ But I've been getting quite a lot of freebies recently :\ feel like a cheapskate materialistic girl, am not okay. Nvtheless, thanks PK for the Goodbye Lullaby! :D

♥ 11:49 AM

♥ 6:41 PM

I dont care what people will say, i'm running after You.



you can dislike me for the way I act, it's the way I am. you can dislike me for th way I talk. (: or my choices. or what i like. I'm created by my God, it's the way I am. i'm not affected, for I'm proud to be who I am. judge me, you don't matter to me. it's cliched, but ''those who judge don'tmatter and those who matter don't judge ''


physics on friday! yes I can do it ^^

♥ 12:13 AM

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♥ 12:56 AM

Made a wrong turn

Once or twice

Dug my way out

Blood and fire

Bad decisions

That's alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood

Miss "no way it's all good"

It didn't slow me down

Mistaken

Always second guessing

Underestimated

Look, I'm still around


Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever , ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin perfect to me


You're so mean

When you talk about yourself

You are wrong

Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead

So complicated

Look happy you'll make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough

I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

See you do the same



Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever , ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin perfect to me


The whole world's scare so I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in line and we try, try, try

But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time

Done looking for critics, cuz they're everywhere

They don't like me jeans, they don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that

Why do I do that

Why do I do that


Yeah

Ohhh, pretty, pretty, pretty

Pretty, pretty, please don't you ever, ever feel

Like your less than fuckin perfect

Pretty, pretty please if you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing you're fuckin perfect to me



You're perfect

You're perfect

Pretty, pretty please if you ever, ever feel like your nothing

You're fucking perfect to me

♥ 8:17 PM

I didn't know some people read my blog, till they told me so during class bbq.
thank you guys for bothering to catch up with my boring life, especially whenever I've gone missing for too long. :/
I know this ogl and cgl stuffs have been taking up much of my time and I didn't spend that much talking to you anymore. But you know, at least you don't need to feel left out in the class and having to pretend to be part of it. When you obviously know that in the class, you're the odd one out. (:
But whatever!

Thanks 10S28, that night has been a good good night. It's been so so so so long since I last let myself lose control. Ever since I came to JC, everything has been about control. trying so hard to control my timing, my life, and especially my emotion. 2cans of redbull, rum and breezer really turned me 180degrees. turned me back into that girl in beige MF uniform.A totally different girl from the girl wearing apple green TPJ uniform D:
letting lose that night was a great change. ^^
whee! :D


something super weird happened today. made me feel super weird too.
if he really cares, he will persevere right? if not, he's not worth it right?
haha! let's not think too much ((:

♥ 12:18 AM

tired!

and still tired :D



I got back from the 25hours quest on saturday! tiring much. took 11s10. great class, fun people (: tho I miss og16 too! aww. and of course og4 of 2010!



i really dont know what to blog, not like anything's too interesting to talk about anyway. hmmm. oh! let's see. yesterday.

I had FA in the morning and then met up with bryan after that to study and visit sharon in novena! (: that girl, she really should rest and not tire herself out too much! D:

So this really weird thing happen while I was on my way home from toapayoh mrt. I walked out of th mrt station and felt a tap on my shoulder, turned around and saw a stranger guy.
this guy told me this :
I know I will regret if I dont say this because the moment I saw you I know I want to get to know you. ( WTF?! )
LOL.
I thought he is one of those sales advertisers targeting young teenage girls. Then he asked me for my name and if I'm th sporty type. Waiting for him to take out some poster/brochurre about sports or something like that. But instead his friend suddenly approached us and he started to introduce himself. o.0
Next, they both started asking me if I would like to go for a coffee someday. And then one of them suggest that I'm too young for coffee. ( fyi, i'm addicted to starbucks )
I stared at them with my *raised eyebrows* look.
After about 1minute, th first guy asked, so Rieka, can I have your number? ( I was holding on to my dead, white-blackberry and spinning it while watching their whole weird conversation )
And I did this. put BB back into my pocket. raised both my shoulders and arms. tilt my head to the side. " duno? " relaxed my shoulder, said " gotta go! bye! " and walked away laughing.
:O
I think this is a stupid prank! like seriously? they are either freaking despo or have nothing better to do apart from pranking some stranger girl on street. geeez.
I want to laugh out loud when I heard one of th guy telling th other one " oh man, at least you tried "

weird people these days!

♥ 11:44 AM

God, teach me how to pray.
to turn to God in all circumstances, it's what I really need. right now.
I'm so confused ):
if only life has ceteris paribus. decisions can be made dependant on only one factor, while every other factors are kept constant. there will not be so much things to consider. it will be so much easier!
goshhhh stop whinning rieka.
-_____-

I don't know if I should be happy because I finally passed 1 test ( physics ) or be sad that I got 60 for physics. encouraging, knowing that I am still able to pass my CA1. but very very discouraging at the score given the fact that I could've done better. disappointing much D: plus it's my favourite subject afterall. gotta work hard for sa1! gambatteh!

sucky at the thought that SA1 is right after next week. And I already have plans to have fun. can't we just take a break?! D: but oh well, thinking about what's coming at the end of the year, A levels, I guess all these sacrifices and sufferings have to be made. rawrrrr. bring me back to life x.x

I wonder what will happen if I tell you something ^^

♥ 11:38 PM

hey there dearest!

I know you're busy with musical and stuffs! jiayou for your practices alright? I wish I could see you perform again, just like year 2006's concert.

you know, life is like a turning wheel. you will be at the bottom, but you will not keep on staying at the bottom forever, for a wheel turns and soon you will be back up at the top again :)

I really miss you so much and I hope to really really talk to you soon ): so many things I feel like telling you but it always seems like there's no time to talk to you. I really, really miss you! I wanna have HTHT with you D:

everything will go well soon enough k, do not worry and have faith in GOD! :D



Lovessss,
the person you admired since sec1

♥ 8:25 PM

dear you,
you don't do something just for the sake of it.
it's doesn't work that way.
you want to do something because you have a passion for it.
you don't know how misleading it looks. the way the media and the public puts it.
it's not just about that. it goes in much deeper than that.
it's not as shallow as it seems.
just because you think you know what it is, doesn't mean that you can do it.
it's a matter of understanding it.

love,
me.

♥ 10:30 PM

hate is a feeling.
don't like is merely an action of not favouring something.

you tell youself you don't like someone. you will not care about that person's action.
it is different from hate. it means you still have feeling for it.
which is suffocating, painful and may lead to impending mania.


good riddance, your riddance in my life has been a good riddance! (Y)
jijiiiiik bgt liat u skrg -.-

thanks maruay! you helped me gained a deep, deep insight today! (:

♥ 9:51 PM

rieka! stop failing! what's wrong with my results T-T

)))))))))):

♥ 8:18 PM