Awesome God!
This post will be about my testimony of God's greatness and supernatural faithfulness.
All I can simply say is, God is really good.
As a student who just graduated JC with an average result for A levels, I'm faced with a crossroad that requires me to take careful steps. Choosing which university to go, choosing which faculty to enter and even which country to go to take my uni.
To make it simple and short, I'm down with an option of whether to take Bachelor of Nursing in NUS which already offered me a place or to take the entrance test into the faculty of Medicine in Universitas Indonesia. It's a tough choice, I've always wanted to be a doctor since I was young. On the other hand, I also don't mind taking up nursing as my focus shifted more towards taking up an occupation in the healthcare sector and interacting with many people. There are many things to consider, I was really ambivalent. For instance, as someone who have been growing up in Singapore, it's not easy to go back to Jakarta and adjust myself to the way they live there. Trust me, I've tried. It surprised me how the level of individualism in Jakarta feels higher than it is in Singapore. But on the other hand, my parents were reluctant about me taking up Nursing as in Indonesia, it is low-payed job is also one that most people look down on. Then on another another hand, there are my friends in Singapore who are reluctant on me going back to study in Indonesia. But one another, another, another hand, I was also thinking about stepping out of my comfort zone and taking a step into the risky life of being in a government school in Jakarta. I was really really confuse and uncertain about my future, which path to take and stuffs. And I was also weak spiritually, because it is not just in this aspect that I was facing internal conflicts.
Now to make the matter worse, my parents came to Singapore the weekend before bible camp, and displayed their distress towards this matter. It adds on to my burden, because I'm afraid to make up a decision as I'm afraid of how it will affect my parents and myself when they disagree with it. During the bible camp, Ps Israel Campbell talked about standing on our ground and even if nobody else is on our side, even if we're alone, as long as God is for us, just persevere on and continue to have faith in Him. But during that sermon, I was not even sure which path I want to take yet. I thought, how can I make my stand in front of the crowd when my heart doesn't know what stand I want to take? How do I have faith when I'm still not sure what aspect to have faith on? But on the 3rd day of bbc, when Ibu Betty prayed for us after the sermon, I just opened my heart and I felt a sensation that is pretty...queer but in a way soothing. Frankly speaking, I've been holding back a lot of things even towards God, which probably explain my spiritual dryness for the past few weeks. But at that moment, I just told Him everything, every single problems I was facing in the present. I told Him my distress, my pain, everything. My heart actually opened up, and it was right when Ibu Betty asked the workers of TLG and prayed for us, the answer actually dawned upon me.
I was more inclined towards staying in Sg because I want to serve in YRC. But I was really afraid that my parents would be against it. So I keep on praying. I also remember Ps Israel's sermon, we have to stand on our grounds! So yesterday actually, I decided that I would tell my parents about it, I was praying to God how I should deliver it. I was praying for strength for whatever the outcome is. But guess what? My mom called me about an hour ago and before I could even speak up, she was telling me the exact things I wanted to tell her! It's as if what I want to say have been planted in her mind all of a sudden, like some sort of an "inception" But I believe this is God's supernatural power. This is his manifestation of faith, this is His way of showing how much love He has for me. This is His truth, this is His awesomeness, His greatness. I couldn't stop praising! I was so happy I want to hug somebody! But I can always just celebrate it, and the best form of celebration I could think of is to give praises to Him, all that He is worthy of.
Father, I can't put into words how awed I am by Your greatness. You're awesome in my life!
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Awakened,
Rieka.
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