gw pengen plg indo.
kgn bgt dgn keluarga.
kdg2 menyesal sekali knp harus sekolah disini, tinggal disini.
kalau waktu bisa berbalik gw lebih mending tgl di tbh aja.
hidupku pasti lebih seneng dgn temen2 dan keluarga.
knp sih mesti tgl disini sendirian.
ga ada siapa2.
teman terbaiku harus meninggalkan aku.
mungkin masih ada yg lain
tapi beda, mrk ga ngerti dgn gw.
knp sih gw beda bgt dgn mrk .
knp harus stuck dgn mrk.
gw itu beda bgt dgn mrk, tapi knp gw ga ada temen lain selain mrk.
gw ga bisa adapt , kita terlalu beda.
meskipun keliahatannya gw seneng dgn kalian tapi udah dari dulu gw nyesal
gw sering merenungkan sejak kpn sih kita jadi satu kelompok
mungkin waktu di sec2 masihh ga separah ini
apalagi udah sec4.
gw ga ngerti knp sih
temen kan seharusnya be there buat each other kalau salah satu ada masalah.
tapi mrk semua kok kaya ga bisa ngerti gw sama sekali.
gw capek tau tiap kali harus berpura2 seneng.
tiap kali harus tertawa dan tersenyum meskipun aku sedih.
tiap kali kalian ada masalah gw slalu at least berusaha cari tau atau membantu menyelesaikannya atau kalau tidak mau mendengarkan apa yg terjadi.
tapi knp ya tiap kali kalian selalu assume that gw orgnya ga ada masalah,
tiap kali gw ada masalah juga dianggap gampang.
gw jg org .
mungkin karena perbedaan gw dari kalian semua jadi kita ga ada connection.
kalian saling ngerti each other,
tapi knp ga bisa mikirin perasaan gw.
udahlah,
gw capek bgt jadi temen kalian.
semua hanya bohongan.

♥ 2:20 PM

cos everyone else has a place where they belong to,
at least they fit in.


a piece of jigsaw puzzle with no picture to attach itself to.

haha.




yet the pride still dominates.

♥ 1:13 AM

♥ 1:57 PM

As Licy wants some surveys, here is one for her.


I got this from facebook.


This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS. Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you see these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random it is, just type it! Repost it for all of your (bored) friends. Consider yourself tagged if you are reading this!

1. Beer: David, Sentosa.

2. Food: Maruay :X

3. Relationships: o.0

4. Your CRUSH: i dont have a crush at the moment.

5. Power Rangers: red ranger !

6. Life: growth ?

7. The President: obama

8. Yummy: food

9. Cars: BMW

10. Movies: ask me out to watch ):

11. Halloween: pumpkins

12. Sex: condoms.

13. Religion: atheist.

14. Hate: you fuckin' ppl.

15. Fear: lizard

16. Marriage: flowers and decos and all the white gowns

17. Blondes: legally blond

18. Slippers: shoes

19. Shoes: erm.. high heels?

20. Asians: ryan higa.

21. Past time: evil plots

22. One night stand: hotels

23. My cell Phone: pink

24. Smoke: ooohhhhh IWANT

25. Fantasy: prince and dragon slayer

26. College: university

27. High school life: filled with faggots and posers.

28. Pyjamas: sleep

29. Stars: sky

30. Center: middle

31. Alcohol: drink

32. The word love: heart shape

33. Friends: o.0

34. Money: shopping and spending

35. Heartache: broken heartshape

36. Time: O levels

37. Divorce: o.0

38. Dogs: COCO

39. Undies: Bras

40. Parents: Indo

41. Babies: Beibei

42. Ex: Losers

43. Song: love story

44. Color: rainbow

45. Weddings: party.

46. Pizza: hut

47. Hangout: by the pool alone

48. Rest: bed.

49. Goal: O levels

50. Inspiration: darren told me that if i studied i will do much better in bio because i get b4 for not studying T.T



there u go.


i didn't go to school today.
life's been a bore though in between them i discovered some things about myself.
Yeah.
i wander alone.

♥ 7:13 PM

so now you know, I'm not a nice girl right?

♥ 3:51 PM

im going to rant on my blog.
i have never done this before.
don't bother reading, it's just a buncha craps written by teenage gal experiencing teenage angst.

Rants on SHs

Im gonna start with my hypothesis of having 2 different kind of people in this world.
everyone is evil.
The first kind are the ones who are evil and are conscious about being evil. They do what they want to do despite knowing what they are doing is wrong.
The second group are the people who are evil ( like duh, everyone's evil ) yet use various wayyyyys to cover up their depravity so that they appear to be nice ;) They would go all out to make people think that they are actually nice, they even contradict their own doings and pretend to be nice.

wow?

The first group of people may seem heartless and have no moral as compared to the second group, but think again.
People in the second group are STILL evil. by doing a coverup, they're putting a front that made them appear to be oh-so-nice and know what word i like to call them? Superficial Hypocrites a.k.a. SHs.
Yeah.
doing 'nice' things out of pity and courtesy? how sincere, it cracked me up so much tonight. Ha Ha Ha.

So SHs are commonly found among teenagers these days. One of the reason is cliquing. They sometimes try so hard to fit in that they even made acquintances with people whom they hates, bitched about or spread rumours about. These people are Losers. They ain't gota life man. Another reason is they are trying to be Ms/Mr.Congeniality wannabe. Sometimes they claimed to be morally upright and even acted as some innocent wide-eyed creature. Their acting skills are soooooo good that 99.9% of the time you can't see through their acts. They do so to achieve popularity from people that will levitate their reputations.

Since SHs are found like everywhere, it is hard to tell who are the SHs and who are not. Here are some descriptions of SHs:
firstly, the person could be a SH if he/she was your enemy but when he/she suddenly flunks their major test, you see him/her sitting beside you.
this apply to You, only if You're one of those top scorers.
However, this could also apply to You even if you're not top scorers. The SHs are probably trying to boost your pride so that You could do them a favour in times of needs.
secondly, SHs are mostly goody-two-shoes. SHs love acting like they're the purest breed of human on earth. They love gaining popularity remember?
thirdly, they LOVE to criticize people who do things that in their opinion are wrong but subconsciously, these SHs are just doing the exact same thing. Like what is stated above, they do many many cover ups to make themselves appear nice,sweet and kind. But pry inside their heart, it stinks more than a dumping ground filled with shit. Ha Ha.
lastly, SHs often generalize. When they do something bad, everyone is dragged with them because they could not stand suffering their reputation bring brought down alone. They don't admit it when they made a mistake. Instead, try to manipulate the situation to fit their own benefit.


But in any case, it is not difficult to find a SH, they are everywhere ):
It may even be You, reading this.
Hello SH! ;X






pretentious much? I don't give a damn.






TEEHEES. :D

♥ 1:12 AM

yo BENEDICT/annabel's husband/ annabel's lover/ fat ass/ pimple face/ mushroom/ annabel's true love/ love of annabel's life/ annabel's one and only/ benabel's father/ annabel's !!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hahahahahahahahaha

welcome to the world of sixteen-year-olds! NC16 movies, pools and many more awaiting you, especially annabel !!! =D

May this year you will become more mature and accept annabel the way she is.
I pray that you and annabel's relationship will bloom into a beautiful flower that last throughout the century !
TEEHEES!;D

♥ 12:17 AM

by davern snipper.

lolol




im definitely going to cut my hair short after prom.
this hairstyle is nice ^^
but i dont think it will suit me.
ah well, who bothers.
i just got to rediscover the person who is not controlled by others thought and opinions.
time to find the dead person and revive her.
yay.




yesterday i went out with vivi and her 2 friends, jenny and another one i can't remember her name :X
i am bad @ remembering names T.T
walked around orchard! =D
it was funny, when i reached i msged her and she said she's outside the mrt, near ion.
i looked around for her but couldn't find -_-
and she's just at the other side of the station! =P
we walked around orchard, going in and out of shops but didn't get anything.
aww.
then im off to meet welly and ching leong for dinner at bk.

chingleong's first try at BK!
LOL
gratz boy for your first meal at BK ^^
and we saw ms.chew there who thought that we went to study but nahhh =P

so,
i wander alone.

♥ 11:47 PM

it sux. like really.
how to change?
to be happy with no worries like herr.
sounds impossible.


Faces-people should just live without one.


cos they sux.

♥ 11:02 PM

21/09/09
one and a half hour in vivo city when no other shop is opened. enjoyed myself very much. being alone is a pleasure. time is felt when you are alone and no one can stops you from doing what you want very much. if only the chance comes more often than now then everything will be so much better. anyway it is a refreshing change, a rest from all the simplicity of people and complexity of life. this is where the sanctuary is and where nothing else could intrude. privacy, secrecy,personalized. puh-leeaze not let it be permanent.







ha.

♥ 10:36 PM

Photos!

♥ 3:42 PM

aloha babes and dudes ! ;)
haven't posted anything for the past few days and here i am! (:

let's not talk about prelim,, one word- sucks.

Went to watch The ugly truth with Maruay, Annabelee and Pearlin at amk hub.
it's effing hilarious !
although pearlin and annabel find it toooooo much, FB and I thought it was really funny.
so LOL =D

While yesterday i went to Annabel's house to watch movies. =P
finished what happen in vegas and started howl's moving castle.
oh, Howl's Hot.
Haha
Hot Howl (:

Today i went to Novena with Praisely.
like finally! novena!
but it was not as i had anticipated.
Then we met up with Annabelee at toapayoh to return overdued library books.
x)
so so sorry annabeleeeeeeee...
let's borrow wrath next, I need some resurgence to my *****yness.
hah .
We had dinner at delifrance while annabelee drink hot chocolate. Then behind me there's this tv which show the same scene over and over again. -_-
lame-o
Basketball next!
so OK, i felt so inflexible, my finger feels powerless and i got tired fast.
damn.
and i feel FAT! ):
seriously, time to go for workouts.
T.T
well at least some consolation here,i still havent reach the stage of P W unlike someone. =P

Waking up early tomorrow morning to send thomas to harbourfront! (:
selamat hari raya to all muslim acquintances and friends! :D ;D :D

and im sooooooo excited, Vivi's coming to Singapore on tuesday! hooray! ^^v
she's an old time childhood best friend.
we have ALOT of catching up to do.
but for now, just YAY!
*beam*

msn's being a serious biatch throughout the whole night. ugh.

♥ 2:21 AM

so today's amath paper 2 ...
lemme share what happened during that 2,5 hours of... " struggle "
hoho.

I was beaming when i was doing the first few questions.
like totally :D :D :D while doing.
hehe.
then it comes to the circle question, question 7.
oh my God, i forgot the equation for circles!
I can't remember the sign + or - for inside the bracket or outside.
DAMN IT.
-.-
Alright, never mind i shall skip that question and move to the next one ^^
question 8 is about trigo.
and i suddenly felt freaking sleeeeepy.
try try to prove but can't get it.
subsequent questions i skip because i cant do the part (i)
And i skip, skip, skip until the last question, question11.
which i totally have no idea how to do !
hoho.
I was damn frustrated that i kept taking out my eclipse and eat and eat eat.
I even calculated all the marks i will lose if i dont do all those question : 54 marks =D
So i decided to go back to the proving question,
and aloha ! i manage to solve it!
solving the trigonometry question start the ball rolling
i move on on to the next questions ,
conquering it till the end :D
then comes the Monster Question -_-
thought I could do a "mmmmmmonster kill"
but i couldn't solve the part (i) of that question~~
T.T
yet at least i manage to reduce the 54 marks lost to about 10+
Well,
that is if there's no careless mistake.
MAN.
I hope there won't be any (:

btw, went to AMK library with Zhao jie yesterday.
studied amath ^^
hoho.
pictures in her blog,,,
i lazy post now =P

alright,
it's bio tmr.
im not studying,
im depending on my common sense tmr.
wish me luck! (:

toddles.

♥ 11:06 PM

phew..

shall not hide it anymore, there, see see see .

I've found a new and conducive place to study - by the pool.
Surprisingly, my best friend has the same sentiment about it! hi5 ninnart ! (:
But no, I haven't finished studying history. ditto to the rest of the subjects. ):

Oh, i just don't get why some people are so effing annoying.
but now i do get why others do not like them too.
zzzz


let's not let it resurface, what has been buried deep down for so long, let's not dig it up again to prevent her from feeling encaged. let's let bygones be bygones...


good luck everybody for the papers next week! (:
hope it wont be a problem for me. lolol

tata

btw, the new nickname for annabel and benedict is legendary couple. xD

♥ 10:01 PM

one of the quiz i took in face book give me this result:

The Bitch

Seriously, stop while you can before everyone hates you! Unless that's what you really want. You don't care who's who and how you treat them. You don't give a crap about the saying "treat people the way you want to be treated" and you stick to it. Bitch!

wow?

haha. the answers choice doesn't seem to be anything bitchy but well maybe the quiz sees through my heart. -.-

okay, blog unlocked. (:

♥ 3:28 PM

well, everything is effed up straight from the heart.


banana contain high amount of potassium?


annabelee and i went to school to find mr.yeo today. (:
we asked him some physics questions.
oh well, that bitchy fat ass can't make it due to his SAT.

so totally fitchy -_-


saw a buncha skanks who thought that we were looking at them. if only they notice our scrunchy facial expression , they should know how gross they look to us. ew..?


pink.


(: leonard 2PM. says:
u look beautiful.


tell me what do you do,
when it all falls apart.
when all the compounds become unstable and breaks down into atoms. ):


both lisa and jess are totally hot.
like hhhhhhhhhhot.
gotta introduce them to maruay so that maruay will learn to fall in love with them. (:


gotta learn how to slp early.
and gotta learn to be more... (:
fill in the blanks i guess.

lovesloves,
riekaaaaa

♥ 3:54 AM

1. centre of gravity is the point through which the weight of an object appears to act for any orientation of the object.
2. the two factors that affect thee stability of an object is the base area and the centre of gravity of the object.
3. when a body is in equilibrium, the sum of clockwise moment is equal to the sum of anti clockwise moment about the same pivot.
4. laws of reflection:
- the incident ray, reflected ray and the normal lie on the same plane
- angle of incidence is equal to the angle of reflection
5. n = sin i/sin r
6. dull, black surfaces are better absorber and emitter of infrared radiation than white, shinny ones.
7. means of energy transfer
- conduction
; no flow of medium
; collision of particles
- convection
; flow of medium
; changes in density
- radiation
; can occur in vacuum
; transmitted by infrared waves.
8. latent heat is the amount of heat absorbed/released by a body during a change of state
9. energy can neither be created nor destroyed in any process. it can only be converted from one form to another or transferred from one body to another but the total amount remains constant.
10. electric field is the region where an electric charge experience electric force.
11. everything is effed up straight from the heart.
12. Ohm's law: the current passing through a metallic conductor is directly proportional to the potential difference across its ends, provide the physical conditions such as temperature is constant.
13. exposed live wire can cause severe electric shock to the user if it is touched.
14. like poles repel, unlike poles attract
15. magnetic field is the region in which a magnetic object, placed withing the influence of field , experience a magnetic force.
16. magnetic field lines tend to pass through magnetic material eg. iron . it can be used to provide magnetic shielding from surrounding magnets. omg!! ultra-cool.
17. the magnetic field of a long, straight current-carrying wire is stronger when it is closer to the wire and when a larger current flows through the wire.
18. current in opposing direction cause repulsion, current in same direction cause attraction.


hot like me.

♥ 7:42 PM

I'm having the day from hell,
it was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

[chorus:]
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

[chorus]

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
'cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

[chorus x2]

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up



Me not expressive enough says people? how wrong, I am expressing myself now and then.

effed up day.

=.=


f'd up peps. zzzzzz

♥ 3:11 AM

31 names, don't be surprised your name's here (:
Can you name 31 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Do Not look at the questions underneath until you write the names of all 31 people.

good luck thinking of 31 names ! :
1. Ninnart
2. Devika
3. Praisely
4. Maruay
5. Benedict
6. Annabel
7. Hsiaohui
8. Hidir
9. Wellyanto
10. Huril
11. Syahrum
12. Kane
13. David
14. Winston
15. Shaoqin
16. Pamela
17. Cynthia
18. Eric
19. Hutomo
20. Hilda
21. Maria
22. Monica
23. Vina
24. Hewitt
25. Nita
26. Kwang yong
27. Mei ting
28. Leo
29. Ching leong
30. Sheryl
31. Fat fregnant biatch

THE BURNING QUESTIONS

• How did you meet 10?
huril. in sec1 she sat bsd me on the first day of school

• What would you do if you had never met 6)?
annabel. oh, nothing, benedict will still introduce me to the love of his life.

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
hilda and sq. lolol ?

• If you could marry between 9 and 14 who will you marry?
wellyanto and winston. =.=

• Did you ever like 7?
hh. i love it when we bitch.

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
maruay. yeaaaaaa, cry until his face damn red when ninnart leaves.

• Would 7 and 17 make a good couple?
hh and cynthia. lollol no =.=

• Would number 1 and 31 make a good couple?
ninnart and her ?!?! NO WAY

•Describe 16
pamela. a nice vice chairperson who happened to be my lab partner which i pangseh most of the time. :X sorry!

• Do you like 12?
kane. oh no no, i hate kane =.= duh!

• What's 5''s favorite color?
benedict's ? any color annabel is wearing =D

• What would you do if 1 just confessed he/she liked you?
ninnart. oh, she has dunnit long ago , i love u too!

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
hutomo. no idea -_-

• What language does 13 speak?
david. english, indo, jawa and mostly CHINESE =D

• Who is 2 going out with?
devika. LOLOL she's going out with number..* ahem xD

• What year is 8 in?
grade 10.

• What is 3's favorite music?
pop. RnB? jazz... and piano pieces.

• Would you ever date 11?
syahrum -_- no no no

• Is 21 single?
maria. no idea :D

• What is 27's last name?
Goh meiting.

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 30?
sheryl. sure, we are in one. lolol nah... sq will kill me -.-

• Where does 18 live?
eric. erm... no idea, ask 2. LOL

• What do you think about 20?
hilda. okay.. (:

• What is the best thing about 29?
ching leong. he is BLUR.

• Describe 25
nita. he is emoooooo -_-

How did you meet 23 ?
vina. in her house ? =D

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
praisely. yeapss.

• How long have you known 6?
annabel. ever since benedict introduced her to me as his wifey =D

• Who is 24 ?
hewitt. -_-

ok this note sux , some numbers aren't even asked at all. =.=
zzz


went out with daddy dearest,
bought a new phone, it's pink.
lovely colour.
also gotten myself a new shoe
and some snacks . =D
i enjoyed my day pretty much
but this effing headache is killin me
blah.
it sucks.
time to sleep.
^^

♥ 2:53 AM

I used to think, I had the answers to everything
But now I know, life doesn't always go my way
Yeah
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize


I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between, I'm not a girl


There is no need to protect me
Its time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own
I've seen so much more than u know now
So don't tell me to shut my eyes


I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between, I'm not a girl


But if u look at me closely
You will see it my eyes
This girl will always find her way


I'm not a girl
I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe
Not Yet a woman
I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman


If I were a boy, I think I could understand.



intricacy is indeed an interesting tool.
never will anyone be able to pierce through that mask and pass the maze.
interesting, interesting indeed..


In fact, his afternoon I have decided to blog about how I felt. but on a second thought, I shouldn't. Some matters are better kept in private than to publicize them.


wishh.

♥ 12:46 AM

Have you ever thought.
With a distance of 1422.51 km in between, two people are thinking of the same thing at the same time?
(=
The distance between Bangkok and Singapore is approximately 1422.51 km. In a split second, we actually had the exact same thought of the same person. And u know what, we don't even need to say what it is, we know that we are thinking of the same thing.
Just one word to describe: amazing.
So, Ninnart, Kane and I were talking about some stuffs.
Then it lead to talking about some tchers..
Then it narrowed down to one tcher..
We're not gossiping, she was just asking about her.
Then, we remembered something that happen during that teacher's lesson!
lolol
Wanna know more, ask any of us. =D
It happens in sec3a while we were still sitting at the 2nd row beside the window ^^
I miss Ninnart~!

And this is how Kane describe 1950 Maria hertogh riot:
Kane [P]eace Dehydrated Vampire says:
. .
fine fine. .
in a nutshell. .
she's a bitch who's being fought over by two other bitches. .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I find this amusing to the max ! lololololol

Today went cycling with Praisely and AnnabelBenedict Lee at bishan park.
hehe^^
Then after cycling we went to play bridge under one of the void deck near our school. xD
Some *ahem* husband keep calling his wife as partner. =D


(=
i feel happy...
i ran from tpy interchange all the way home...
i have better things to do than plotting against you,
this time you're lucky to be off the hook.



no worries, i will solve the problem asap okay?
(:

♥ 11:50 PM

i haven't had this feeling for so long.
it's been like... 9mths ?
yeah since the last time we see each other.
but somehow, the game made me feel very close again.
like the distance doesn't matter at all.
it finally dawned on me the kind of emotion we may have on the day.
but well, no matter what it's still coming.
no matter the distance, we'll always be able to count on one another.
(;


good luck, kane. for your paper later. ^^

♥ 2:24 AM

we can make the night last forever.


i wannnna play basketball again although i just played a few hours ago.
time to exercise more, avoid ending up looking like her.
;)


btw, that was my definition of three's a crowd.
try to read more in depth.


actually i don't feel like blogging.
i just don't know why my hand moved the mouse and clicked " blogger.com "
so tah-dah, here i am typing nothing but words without much thought.


well let's see what can i talk about..
erm.. benedict bought a new wallet .
so praisely and i accompanied him because he can't get annabel, we're like his spares. =P
went around city hall in rounds and we bought the wallet in the first shop that we checked out.
after that we went home.
then played basketball!
i felt so intoxicated after playing basketball.
it's like, :D :D :D so so so happy.
perhaps it's the first time letting the adrenaline goes running down the blood stream after days of mood swing.
i feel like doing something fun :P
i have a complain which i shall not state here though.



the rebel inside is screaming for me to let her outt. poor thing. captured and imprisoned and never let lose. there is not where she belongs. bye bye.
let her out to see the world one day.


happy birthday winteng! ;D

♥ 2:14 AM

you know what, get a life. (:




there is only two reasons why someone wanna avoid a person.
firstly, he/she dislike him/her.
secondly, he/she is guilty.

;)

idiot -.-"

♥ 2:52 AM

Totally done and satisfied with Social Studies paper.
English and Amaths next.

As dawn break and the
big, round ball crosses the horizon.
The image turns vivid and the
deceitful ones perish.
Along with the gleaming fire
rises the pristine entity, enigmatic.
Perplexed? Be wary.
This time, it's unorthodox impersonation.

laugh.
It was such an interesting day with amaths, kids, dog and laughters.
Baffling yet still occur.
Might want to take a break indefinitely.
Just what I need...

♥ 9:51 PM