ihmms...okie..yesterday mf is the only sch tt dun have holiday. it's stupid ok..in the morning i went up the bus n this bus driver stare at me with what-are-you-doing-so-early-in-the-morning-wearing-school-uniform-on-national-day look.then i jz dun care n went up to double decker bus.and once i went up,those ppl in the bus start looking at me with tt questionable look again.i m the only one wearing uniform okae?? luckily until one of the stop verisia n other mayflowerians got up the bus.phew...
but overall,the national day celebration is nice.band also played the national anthem well [ ninnart must be hapi to see this.lols ]. after the national day celebration we went to one of the mac near amk cc . went there to eat altho i feel vry full. -.- wasting money..n in the end didnt finish the burger so ninnart ate it for me. after tt took some pictures with the seniors. but i m not reali in the mood.. duno why this few days always feel bored.mayb coz long time no play bball le. xD
after eating,the seniors went home so ninnart,huril n i went to a playground n chat.we were feeling damn bored n so decided to play truth or dare.lols...wah kao they all so...walao eh...make me shout "____iadmireu!!" when i actuali dont..ok fine,i do admire him okay? but i also admire many other bois..but i dun go ard touching them unlike some ppl. -.- it just make them look reali cheap n if they dont know , they shld changed after ppl told them. it jz make oneself unlikeable by doing tt . fine enough of my critisicism.
aaron is a good senior n a nice person.hahas...well,i from these few daes very vexed mahhs then he say stuffs n i guess..i shall jz do according to wad he says. let her be..there's nth we can do abt it..n yeahhs..it's true...if she doesnt wanna change then jiu let her be lor...so..thx aaron!! xD shld tell ninnart abt it. lols..then 3 of us can be the best ob frens without any obstacle.lols..obstacle there may be but at least now i not so stressed up le.n all thx to aaron.lol.i make it sound so....okay...but yeahhs..he is nice.hahas...n btw,happie bday singapore!!hahas...
♥ 11:50 AM
i dreamt of him last night..strange dream it was..he had never talk to fer my whole life alright..and in that dream..i duno how or why issit like that but everyone seems to know my feeling towards him.it was strange alright..just hope it will never happens..which makes me decide not to tell anyone else about how i feel towards him.just one person is enough to make me feel insecure..fine,enough of wad happen last night ok?
i m a failure,if i cant get my fren back together how am i gonna face more problem in the future?all these stuff is making me stressed!! i dont wanna lose a fren.i just cant afford to lose anymore fren okays?i have lost many best friends in the past just because i kept quiet when there's problems.tell me wad to do..tell me how can i solve this problem?it sux okay? it seriously sux..i talk to them abt it n since they r so stubborn as not to listen to me? fine.mayb the best way is to step out of their lifes altogether.rather than wasting my time and effort telling them about how should we change our friendship fer the better.i can just let them be.do as they wish.i can do that if i wan to,but i jz cant do that.i cant bring myself to do that.how?wad should i do? tell 'her' to leave us so that we can communicate better and our problem can be solved? i need someone to talk to!! but r there anyone free enough to listen to my crap? n-o no.i dun think there's anyone who will do that..it's like..oh puh-leaase..by listening to me will just downgrade them.sigh~
but i have good news here too..mi lu bing won!! fine i m still overjoyed altho it's like a few daes ago. by the fact tt my money dont go wasted..lol..and well..another good news is that shroom finally plucked up the courage to ask huril out!! hehex... glad that i m gonna succed matchmaking another couple..hahas....ok..erm....hope they will last longer unlike rexnlly..sad lar them..duno how to stead de lor...nvm...syahrum must jiayou in jioing huril..hahas..okaes...
♥ 9:11 PM
argh!! i m sick of holidays!! fine today arh...k lar..at least can use comp..
hmm...n it's also shroom sir's bday!wahaha..huril damn hapi sia giv him the heart n the mushroom thingy.hahas..he must be vry hapi to receive it from huril.lol..hmm...holy shit i forgotten to bring huiting's basketball...aikes..today is boring...today ms chua didnt come...hapi sia...so the test is postponed to next week..
hais has been vry slack these term..must buck liao...after sch went to tpy with jueyin then waste time seeing clothes..hais..duno why feel very sian lor...saw many nice clothes lar...interested in buying but no $$ if someone pay fer me jiu good lor...hais..lol.syahrum today keep toking abt huril de...then say wan jio her out..LOL!! [ syahrum hope u r reading this,lol ] .hais confused leh..sumtimes i feel tt i m close to her but sometimes i feel tt she is a different person altogether..it's jz confusing ok?
i duno wad to do n stuff n it feels miserable this way!! stress!! i jz duno how it begins in the first place?!? wad would my other friends think if i m close to her? it jz confuse me..fine...i shall stop this crap,i may jz walk away from their lifes and stop making myself so depressed. i jz cant stand it.
wah kao jueyin tot i like aaron? -.-"
it's like...one of the funniest thing i ever heard bfr..lols..
n fer those reading this,it's not true okay? i dun like him..i mean..i like him as a senior but not the way jueyin tot okay?
argh!! sians....fine i gtg now,might be gg to some kind of cc to play bball tmr..hais...wad a boring day..
♥ 2:55 PM
sians lar..
now let me ask,if u hav a fren whom u used to be very good with her n now she had totally change into another person,wad will u do?
we had given her tt chance n since she doesnt treasure it,fine..
now,since last week..we had stop toking to her fer a few daes n when the sec3 seniors told us to tok abt it we hav cleared evrythin n tell her wad we think she shld change.fine,maybe not evrythin coz i was afraid it would hurt her too much as she doesnt hav a clue wad's wrong with herself and still think tt she is PERFECT.after we tok to her abt it well..i tot tt she might hav been more understanding and change but tt only happen for abt a day or two.after that,she went bck to her "normal" self and go ard flirting with boiis.it's like..wad's her problem?she says tt it's N and H who dun wanna tok to her but if she doesnt change who would wan to tok to her?definetely not me.she will soon go to the seniors again,crying n telling them abt how we treat her.it's fucking irritating if u duno.it's not like we totally hate her or wad but it's she herself who doesnt cherish the chance tt we gave her.wad can we do?tok to her abt it again?i m to busy to do that.moreover,common test is coming and i dun think i can cope with so much stress.
and i know how egoistic she is.wadeva we say she will nv lose to it and keep toking bck.it jz irritate me sometimes.
i guess it's true tt our frenship is beyond cure.and someone told me she dont plan to change.wad can i do?i dun wanna giv a damn.she asked fer it n we gave it to her.it's her own fault if we reali stop toking to her.
and u knw wad?she treat me as a spare.if she's in a good mood,she hangs out with the other class's ger n she tok to me when she has no one to tok to her.so how would she expect ppl to like her tt way?and she always says ppl copycats..wad abt her self?she is also one.i bet she doesnt like hkty as much compare to last time bfr she knw tt someone oso like it a lot.
i dont care even if she go ard crying n telling evryone on how we treat her to seek for symphaty.she wants it n we gave her.if she reali dont plan to change,then forget it.i wont regret my decision.i had bear it fer vry long n she shld thx me fer tt coz i still did tok to her even tho N n H didnt.she didnt even realise tt?then fine.
n tt's not my only prob...it seems tt...someone had bcome closer n closer to us..i duno why or how it happens lar..but nvm..i shall stop here.
♥ 11:12 AM
sugar,spice and all thing nice.