Lenz's Law! ^^


These few days have been tiring much. I felt really, really deprived of sleep, today especially. And when I got home this evening I just lay on my bed and unknowingly doze off. -.- Fluctuating moods aren't helping at all. Making everything worse. Especially in a surrounding that I highly don't favor. ha. Somehow I felt like I'm married to studying. ==" Not that I study that much, but I constantly think about my commitment and how it's taking much of my time away from me. It's like a nightmare that I'm trapped in and can't wake up. Yet ironically, the fact that I have to study gave me a sense of an end point. Like a finishing end that is compelling me to be erm, living. It made me feel like my life has a purpose. Well, for recently I seemed to have lost purpose in many things.

But I guess school's not that bad after all, if you're placed in the monday J202 group for maths STAR programme and attend maths lecture in LT1. xD

Also, with the "invention" of Lenz's Law.
HAHA!

Seems like I'm infected with this habit that a certain group of people ( S28 ) have. =="

Tomorrow the class's going to audition for SongFest. All the best class! ^^

♥ 9:08 PM

spertinya, Tuhan telah memaafkanku. Karena akhirnya bisa melihat kau tersenyum. Meskipun perasaan udah nggak seperti dulu lagi, tetapi sesuatu yg pernah ada tidak akan pernah musnah. (: Dia akan hidup dalam kenangan, sbagai kenangan yang terindah.

♥ 11:38 PM

Recently, I kept on seeing 11:11 whenever I look at time. Pure coincidence,,,, xD Or is the saying by people true? HAHA! But nah, it's pure coincidence ^^

Inception with Xuefang,Benny,Jeremy,TCY and Robin just now. BK left =="
Inception rocks ttm!!!!!! EPIC! It's super super duper nice! :D
Although yes, at the beginning it's quite confusing because we didn't know what they were doing. But after they got on the plane I started to understand what is it about. Ah, the complexity and twist. Interesting indeed. (: Kinda made me feel like researching more about dreams like I did last year on lucid dreams and sleep paralysis. ==" But it's too bad I got EoM to do. Ha ):

I skipped morning service today. Why? I decided to do GP and Econs. ): I don't know what came over me. It's like crazy, I know. ._.

Tue: submit EoM
2more weeks: Phy and Chem SPA
2more weeks: CA2
10more weeks: PROMOS!

(Y) my life rox ttm! YAY!

♥ 11:12 PM

Masalah itu akan selalu ada. Dan dia ada karena ijin Tuhan. Karena itu, jangan lari dari masalah dan berdoalah kepada Tuhan bagaimana menghadapinya. Just submit to Him.. :)

♥ 10:23 AM

FRIDAY!
:D
Whew.
It's a good short break tonight. I'm not studying tonight. HAHAHA!.
Learning to make studying a habit recently! Thanks to Jon n Pika^^
Aja aja!

Dinner w lovely Annabel and Hidir @ J8 just now!!!!! :D So many new gossips :P At least, despite all the muggin' this week I still have a social life at the end of this week. ((: & so it's quite balanced. Well, anyway my life haven't been that interesting recently. Apart from studying everyday. But I feel like it's an achievement to complete maths tutorials! Another achievement this week: I didn't sleep during any of the lectures AT ALL! HA! I think this must be the first week ever in TPJC that I did not doze off during any lectures. Especially GP and Maths lectures. I can't help it that I'm put into STAR programme for Maths. :) Ironically, taking part in the New South Wales Mathematics Competition. xD

Homework must be cleared this weekend :D


There's just something about the way...

♥ 12:16 AM

rank point: 41pts.
EW!

I'm so far from it, really.
To be as close as you, I probably gotta do multiple time of what you have done for I've missed out much for the earlier part of the year. ):

Mrs.Foong kinda motivated me. :D
I'm gonna do maths now. XD
YAY!

♥ 8:57 PM

Aim high! ^^

Chinese oral today! Totally screwed it upside down down down down down! =(
I have nothing to talk about, so I just crapped. I finished very very quickly. Many words I don't know how to say and almost use english to say it out! Lucky they helped me a little. Muahahaha!

Class's tiring. PW's tiring. JC's tiring. ):

I feel like sleeping!

♥ 9:54 PM

Very simple reason.
I just don't want to have anything to do with you guys.
The main reason I'm not totally detaching myself is because I want to save 2 people. And secondly because of how nice someone is to me and I don't wanna disappoint her. She's a really respectful lady. Rare breed.

Actually, I don't wanna have anything to do with you at all.

In the first place, life's probably better if I never knew you.
But nah,
never have this kinda mindset.
If I never knew you, I'll probably never learn that I shouldn't be too close to MMBs.
ha!

♥ 10:45 PM

Annabel, you didn't say mention anything about leaving your blog in a lurch): I have one less blog to read atm +.+

The weather has been peacefully wet these few days. I can't go to that spot of serenity though. That's the compensation to pay for such weather. Haha ^^ However it's a good change as well. Reminds me of those long rainy Saturdays I experienced months ago. Really, rainy.


So anyway, I'm kinda happy yesterday. It's like, bringing more people to yrc. (: Praise the Lord for these people have desired to come with me yet due to circumstances they haven't been able to do so but finally they can make it yesterday. =D

It made me feel thankful for this complete family that I belong to. And everything else.


Last week, someone cuddled me to bed, after so many years(: I like that feeling. It made me feel so safe. It made me feel like a baby once again(: It made me feel as though the I'm far far away from the perils of this world. It made me feel like it's okay to cry. Ahahahahahahahahaa


OH! We went to Jonathan's house and did PW today. pipipipipipi
I found out that Ting fong and Chiayin are very sick people. xD tsk tsk tsk~

& I succeed in logging out my facebook account from Anthony's iPhone :D
HAHA!!!! FINALLY! Now they can't hack me anymore ! huffffff!


Chinese oral tomorrow.
Why worry, when I trust Him in everything that I do? Jesus take the lead.

♥ 8:20 PM

At 6 on the dot.
The wind screamed
and thunder roared.
Globs of rain washed into the room.
Cleansing away wound
yet ironically stung.
Blending in with the flowing tears
of the dozing girl on bed.
As light as the feather,
it brings her spirit up above the weather.

♥ 10:40 AM

Dear shin,

tiredddddd! ));
So many things to do, so insufficient time! Huhhhh.. However, these tasks make me feel like I have something to accomplish. (: So aja aja! I can do 'em all! :D
Chinese oral's on monday. I'm starting to listen to Chinese song today xD Well, not like it's gonna help much but it does help my Chinese grade to jump from B4 to B3 for O level's last year. Ain't that good?
I'm feeling random. I just needa ranttttttttt! Ok.
This week must've been the week that I do most work. The week that I kept myself consistently studying. Hah! Not bad, it's a great improvement. ;) However I still gotta reflect on my pathetic midyear results. lalalalalalala~ I need better time management.
shin, recently I've been facing quite a problem. However, thanks for always being there for me. Just keeping silent, without any comment, letting my heart pour itself out to you. Aww. ^^
I'll keep away at the moment. It's the best thing to do(:

today I learnt this:
pV=nRT

♥ 11:39 PM

Extremely exhausted!
Just came back from Changi Airport Terminal 3 not too long ago. Ahhhhh! I love airports. :D It's like a stress reliever for me. ^^ Today's taking portrait of foreigners and architecture. I took portrait of this Caucasian lady with her son. Goodness, she's so nice! =D I like nice people. So friendly and sincere. The daddy even make funny faces so that their son will smile for the camera. But the shy little boy refuse and kept on hiding his face from me. Aw. ):
Overall it's a fun session. (:

Went to run 3 rounds the track with Zihui after school today! Uhh, under the scorching hot Sun. :P It's a totally crazehyyyyy plan. But jogging under the hot giant fire ball is a pretty good way to motivate yourselves to jog faster and hence leading to a shorter time taken for 2.4.
I'm so tiredddddddddddddd! T-T

Tired until can die.

Things happening this term:
1) SA1 which is gladly over
2) Chinese oral next week
3) PW deadline
4) SPA!!!!!!
5) Common test

ganbatte neh, rieka-chan!! ^^v

♥ 7:51 PM

2 Commendables,
2 Extraordinarily Excellent :P
1 Unbelievable.
WOAHHH. NOT BAD AH RIEKA.
==
I'm gonna punish myself. Bad SA results will be a compelling factor to do well for promos. HAHAHA.

It's not easy to pry open one's heart.
Sometimes, you thought you know a person and you end up making conjectures about that person. However, fact can be otherwise.
Everyone is born with a good heart. It's just how their environment teach them to make use of their heart.
Some are able to make full use of their good heart.
Some are contaminated by the dusts and dirt their environment.
Some have no idea of a good heart.


Sometimes, when you think that you can trust a person, that person turn around and stab you in the back.
You just gotta be careful of the people you let into your life.

It's a lesson learned.

♥ 12:02 AM

Terima kasih yah. HAHA! Nangis di dpn org enak kali. =="
Actually, I feel much better. Untung tadi kalian bikin aku marah & teriak sampe aku nangis. Skrg rasanya jauh lebih baik ._.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! udah lama bangetttt since i last cried in front of someone. haiiiiiih ):
rahasia yg udah bertahun2 dipendam akhirnya keluar juga.
haihhhhhh.
jgn ceritain siapa2. Aku gak pernah ceritain ke siapa2. makanya don't break my trust in you. ):
jgn ngungkit2 lagi...

Don't judge me if you don't know me. You don't have enough material to make a conjecture about me. Don't judge a book by its cover...

♥ 10:15 PM

Figured out.

I'm gonna put this all in His hand. ^^

I shall be fine. :)


:) :) :) :) :)

& listen to what God is telling me to do.


Terima kasih Tuhan atas segalanya...
Kau yg terbaik dalam hidupku.

♥ 2:05 AM

As I told Vina just now, this song has been stuck on my head for the past few days. She said maybe He is telling me something. Proven true.
I've been pondering a lot about the song and my life. Depicted perfectly, figuratively.
All I wanted to say. All that I feel like screaming out.
I'm letting go,
I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life.


This is a test for me. Whether I will fall to people's words or I will hold on to His words. I must have faith. I'll hold on.
I'll make a change.



Teach me to swerve and change direction. I don't wanna fall. T-T


N1.

♥ 1:04 AM

have to suffer the burden alone? haih ):
I know Lord will help me pull through.

but it's so difficult.

♥ 12:39 AM

hi.
find me only if u need me. and if u want to.
otherwise, i'll stay away.
stay away from things that stop me from smiling.
& stay away from people who will be unhappy if I don't.
^^

It's just conjectures,,
it's not the truth.
But what can I say.
nothing.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

♥ 12:28 AM

I kinda like this song.

"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be
And you're only as small as the world will make you seem
When the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall
Just look on the brightside - you're roughly six feet tall."

YESSSSS!
It's so inspirational. It's so happy-making. It's soooooo damn good at cheering people up.

So far I got an Unbelievable for Maths and Commendable for Chem. Wow, not bad Rieka. ==" And I'm most probably getting Superb or another Unbelievable for Econs. Let's see on Monday.


Celebrated Vina's 1 month late birthday celebration with Momo yesterday!!! :) So happy! I'm always so happy whenever the 3 of us go out together. ^^^^ So pizzaHut @ Thomson plaza. Aww,,, I had this very very VERY nostalgic feeling walking pass the KFC of Thomson Plaza. I rmb u guys ): I miss the times in sec2. LOL. Each and every moment of sec2. T-T And so I told Momo and Vina that we studied sec2 science chapter 6 at that table before * points at the direction of the tables * . HAHAHAHA! I remembered them clearly ==" Teaching them about something that they don't know at first. :P hehehe. remember?



My instinct tell me I should stay away. ^^

♥ 12:01 PM

German just lose. ):
I feel like telling them what's wrong with the game.
My players not playing their max effort just now. T-T
So sad! T-T

& here I am, stuck to do EOM until school start.
N1. HA.

Spain didn't win because they played very well, they won because Germany didn't attack up to their full potential. See, they can't break through Germany's defense if not because of that corner and lag by the goalie. But nevertheless, Im hoping for Spain to beat Holland. Germany's getting 3rd place again this world cup. ): Just like the last time. So sian.

Ahhhh EOM! T-T

♥ 4:59 AM

It's through the process that we learn and gain wisdom.


=D

I can face this challenge. I believe.



Youth day today? o.0 I don't celebrate celebrate youth day. I celebrate children's day! :DDDD
Stayed at home. Go to TPC. Bought a blue T-shirt. Drink Koi. Pass CCL back his notes. Found out that I'm being framed by someone. WOW! Found out a secret about someone. WOW! double surprise.

It's such an emotional day for me today. (:

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

♥ 12:01 AM

Talking to ko Hendra on msn now, we're chatting about our siblings and things that happened when we were still young. Interesting much(: Talking about them made me miss them so much.. Although my siblings and I aren't as close as ko Hendra and his siblings, but we still do have some nice, sweet memories together.

I remember when we were very young, we would always tease my youngest brother at night on bed. Creating imaginative stories about trees and oranges and so many innocent stuffs.

When my 1st brother and I were young, we used to play a lot together. I remember taking out one of the wine from my dad's shelves and I don't remember how we ended up getting scolded by my grandmother because my brother drink the wine. xDD

I remember my 1st brother and I always play role-playing game with my cousins at my maternal grandma house.

I remember defending my 1st brother when my cousin made him cry during one of their quarrels when we were little.

There were also the period when a lot of PS rental houses start to appear around our area and my uncle decided to build one. Then my 1st brother and I would always go and play the bubble popping game. I forgot what is it called ._.

My 1st brother and I always thought of a lot of witty ideas. We once peep at our grandfather sleeping in the middle of the night and we did something which I ain't suppose to say here cos it was really naughty. xD

We always quarrel . Very, very often.

I remember putting my fingers into my sister's mouth when she just started to have teeth and got bitten very, very, very hard.

I remember my sister falling from the ayunan when I was eating chao guo tiao for lunch before going to school. xD

I remember that very morning when my sister first time held a milk bottle by herself. She was lying on this red color baby-bed thingy.

I remember how cheeky my sister was when she was young. Always posing and not shy of other people.

Then I remember at night, I used to play this girly game with my sister about buying makeups and pretty stuffs.

I remember tricking my sister with this ni & wo game that I invented when I was little.

I remember the first time I saw my youngest brother when my mother just gave birth to him, I thought that he was a doll. xD

I remember calling him " didi ( means little brother in chinese ) " when my parents haven't thought of a name for that little infant yet.

I remember drawing my youngest brother on my magnet board during that period when he was just a few days old.

I remember this walking style my youngest brother and I would walk in. Me standing behind him and wrapping my hands around his shoulder then we would walk with the same side of leg stepping the ground.

I remember one chinese new year my mother beat my little brother up when we quarrel and he cried in a corner. Though before that we were quarreling but at that moment when my momma was beating him up I was super sad.

I remember after I study in Singapore, I've asked my brother: who does he love most in this world. He would say mummy, daddy and you.

I remember pinching my little brother's cheek so much until a blue-black appear on his cheek and he cried. But he was so irresistibly cute!


~~~~~


Now, I would be happy when my 1st brother tell me his secret crushes. He's growing up(:
I'm elated whenever I get the chance to talk to my sister on facebook. She's spent more time with her friends now. No longer that chubby little girl who will help me take water whenever I ask for ( I was lazy xD )
I'm reminiscing the time when my youngest brother and I were at the back seat of my dad's friend's car. I thought of my past maternal grandmother and I was lying down on my little brother's leg. Tearing, I told him I miss her. I know my little brother is a quiet and sentimental boy(: He's still young. The last time I talked to him, I told him I miss him. Then I ask if he misses me and he quietly admit. :'(


They're all @ pekanbaru right now. Having holiday. How I wish I could be with them ):
How I wish that my family would come to Singapore.
I urge those people whose family is currently with them right now to treasure this moment. You're lucky to be able to spend time with your family.
Now, I see teenagers not cherishing the quality time they have with their family.
A perfect example is about this family who is very close to me. Have a son. His mom called him a few days ago to say that she is coming to Singapore and during that conversation he asked his mom when's she going back to Indonesia. Instant scolding. =.= His mom wasn't even in Singapore yet and he's already thinking of her going back. I never dared to ask my mom when she's going back to Indonesia when she comes to Singapore. Despite the freedom taken away, I give those time to treasure the moment of her presence.


God, I thank You Lord for giving this wonderful family to me. I pray to You Lord that one day they will know You and be saved Lord. It's the only border between my family and I right now. I pray to You Lord that You will protect my family wherever they are, no matter what happen. I ask You Lord to give me the ability to hold this family closer, so that we can be a proper happy family that I always dream about. I pray Father, that You will be the Father of this family of mine. Give me a way to bring this family to You Lord. In Your grace, Amen.

♥ 1:48 AM

Finally the exams are over!!!!! I'm so elated!!! xD
Like, because today I finished my Physics paper unlike all the other H2 papers. Whew. It's difficult, but at least I manage to finish it. I could've done faster though, because I didn't have time to go back to think about 1 question that i skipped. But well, at least it's over!
Now it's just the results. I've prepared for the worst. Failing 2 H2 subjects and prolly GP and Chinese too. Just gonna work harder the next time round. Starting from next week. This weekend I wanna take a break from everything. So tired ):

So yeah! After exams I was SO HIGH! :D :D :D
And then went to Tampines mall with Harith, Chiayin, Darren,Jeremy, Jonathan, Lucas, Darrell and Robin for lunch @ Long John Silver. Funny sia, everyone talking about how screwed up the SA was.. After that Harith, Lucas and Jonathan went home and the rest of us went to watch Knight and Day. NICE! The guys said it's an " epic movie " :P I found it so nice! OMG. Tom Cruise looks hot as the main lead =P OMG. So many hot guys in movies but none in reality. HAHAHAHAHA! ((: After the movies we wanted to like go elsewhere to lan or something, but it was raining so heavily that we can't go anywhere. ._.

Went into random shops and play! First stand was Popular bookstore, looking at all the A level guide books and laughing at making funny jokes about The SA. =.= The Screwed-up SA. Chiayin found this small guidebook which has all the formulas for maths inside. It's suits those people like Chiayin who only started flipping through the notes the very night before maths paper. xD
Next we go to music store. O.o there's this classical guitar, very very nice. ._. but very very expensive. Then Darrell pressed some button of a keyboard on our way out and suddenly it started playing this funny tune that kinda scared us. haha! So we rush out of the music store and somehow end up in Toys R Us. Can you imagine! like 5 super big JC guys inside Toys R Us bouncing the hyperballs which can bounce like super high. =="

But I had so much fun! Ever since I come to JC I haven't had this kinda fun for so long. It reminds me a little of the time in sec2. Watched Spiderman3 with Maruay and the rest. Because I got pangseh. It was also on the last day of midyears if I'm not wrong. Almost the same situation, just different people.

I went to cut my hair! xD Now it's short. short! :D :D :D
Ok maybe not that short, short. But it's definitely not long. Hmm.
My hair grows fast so in another 3 month I reckon it's gonna reach the same length as last time. In another 1 year I can perm it. ^^ Yay! At least my hair is proper now. =="

(((:
exam's over! yay!

♥ 9:07 PM

Truthfully, I'm damn scared.
After all the papers that have been done for the past few days, I totally lose confidence in my most confident subject, which is tomorrow. Don't even have the mood to study at all now.
I need motivation ):

♥ 12:03 PM