I forgot to be bitchy just now,
now I remember.
You know what?
Girls with asses like mine don't go with guys with faces like yours.
(:
Let's move on because I've finally got over and done with what I ought to do.
Thanks, for telling me that I've wasted your time. Because that is what pressurized me to move on. makasih buat sglanya ^^ ' nice' to know you.
tmr PE. Yay!
♥ 6:42 PM
Come with me tonight, we can make the night last forever.
I wanna own a red lipstick.// so I can draw all over my mirror and pretend that they're my blood.:D
believe it or not, I camped inside study room since 3pm to 10pm and only going out twice. Once to take my jacket and the other time at around 7 to go home bathe and eat. =P
First time ever. =D
I like this little angst-y mood. So long since I had one like this. It feels so secondary school all over again.
I wanna spend the night with you, yeah yeah.
" Because suddenly it doesn't matter if he cares or not.It doesn't matter if I'm going out with H tomorrowor if E will text me tonight. It doesn't matter ifJ remembers all our memories together or if he is seeing other girls at the moment. What mattersis the little phone call from home, directing me towardsmy focus whenever I'm about to stray away.Thanks God for giving me such a wonderful family and for sending such an insight, a message for me.I love you, J for Jesus "It's what matters the most.
♥ 12:14 AM
Current mindset: As long as I do what I want to do(: The respond might or might not be good. If it's good then I will be happy! If ignored, at most I will just go emo again, but that aside life still goes on (:
right?
I love sleeping in, seriously. This weekend is the first time I slept so much xD Whole body aching due to heats and badminton on Friday. My urge to join badminton become stronger! :X muahahahahaha. Should I or should I not? :D I miss being in a sports CCA again! hahahaha.
So good, listening to my friends who're in US right now talk about their life. I wanna go there too ): Maybe I will leave this place someday and find somewhere which I really like. There's nothing restricting me to leave here anymore anyway, it's a matter of whether I want it or not. ^^
1.5 taon lgi, kmu pasti bisa bertahan! Aja aja fighting! ^^v
♥ 1:23 PM
belajar untuk membuka diri (:
gak baek ada rahasia..~ xD
tapi ada bbrp hal yg seharusnya...hanya diantara bbrp insan..A bit bored of blogging! Not many people read my blog anyway, and Im bad at making my life sounds interesting, unlike other people .
School is tiring this week! Im getting sicker each day of this week...Literally sick xD From blocked nose on wednesday morning to a slight flu on Friday morning following with a cough till now ._. Lucky I had my 8hours of sleep ytd, otherwise I sense an imminent fever. :D But being sick after so long is not bad. Haha!
Friday I went to run 200m heats! OK, I really didn't perform up to my potential. Slowed down at one part ==" Issac and Anthony ran too! (: Jiamin and Kai'en came to support us. Wheeeee~ (: Lovely people. Hmm..I wanted to talk to you but I don't dare. (",
Today was lovely! lovessssssssSenenge! 21st~ =P can make me smile like..... :) :))))))Muahahahahahaha. In the lift. =PThen went tuition, in which I almost totally did not concentrate somehow, my eyes felt damn pain xD Maybe smile too much =PAfter that TLG~! Hehehe. Dateng donk, kapan2 ((: Klo kita boleh berteman lagi ntar aku ajakin kmu,, byk org Indo, kmu pasti seneng. ^^Hihihi....truz pulang rumah, nongkrong di playgrd, main2 ama mickey n darling. dogs are so cute!! =D After a while! HAHA! 21st again =="hahahahahaha xDgilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeTuhan, hanya Kaulah satu2nya yg setia kpdaku...
satu-satunya.....
Kaulah satu-satunya, Jesus...Kamu hebat lho.
♥ 1:27 AM
Dirly's version of pelangi dimatamu = OMG!!!! super fantastic ttm!
instantly fell in love with him ♥
hahahahahaha!
Today is a super tiring day...... T-T
btw gw punya pilihan untuk membuka diri atau menjaga hati ._. harus menjaga hati, tapi apa salahnya berbagi? bingung...
IM SO HAPPY! Maruay is not MIA anymore!!!! =D YAY!
hahahahahahaha. Glad to have you back bitch! Now we can start bitching session again ♥ muahahahahaha.
Pretty much high the whole of today I think it's one of the most time I laugh in a day for very very very long already. xD Like ever since Maruay and Praisely left ): But IM SO HIGH NOW! :D self-entertain much ==
21st floor today... wkk =P
cam-whored a lot during physics lecture =P escaped to th toilet with JIAMIN and DHEENAH! xD they took funny funny pictures, shall upload them as soon as I got them into the laptop. AHHHH! I WANT A NEW LAPTOP!!! ._.
high high high~
I love studying by the pool, gives me peace and serenity ♥
makes me feel like I have no problem (:
I ♥ Jesus.
Makasih tuhan, my brother can finally walk now. (:
♥ 12:05 AM
Lagu ini aku suka semenjak pertama kali nonton film sinetron pelangi di matamu. Kyknya udah lamaaaaaaa banget, bahkan mungkin sebelum aku sekolah di sg. Tapi aku ga pernah lupa lagunya, and how it goes. Trus tadi pas sedang browsing youtube, jadi kepengen untuk coba2 cari lagu itu. Pas aku type " pelangi dimatamu " dan mencoba mendengarkan lagu itu, EH ternyata tidak salah lagi! itu lagu yg s'lama ini s'lalu ada dibalik kepalaku xD
cocok banget untuk mengungkapkan apa yg gw rasain. haih ):hari ini tgl 19.. dia bakal inget gak yah? ._. huff.. ): ga mungkin. gw jgn mikir yg enggak2 dhee.. gw kan udah habisin banyak waktu dia, ngapain lgi dia mau nghabisin waktu mikirin gw. haha! get real rieka (:tapi gw...kangen.Erina, jgn mikir yg macem2 deh! Jangn sedih :D
Lalala~Had pearlin's belated bdayy celebration ytd at her hse! I played annabel's ipod touch till the battery become less than 20% xD Welly beat my high score for sneezing game T-T I wna play again next time!!!!! We had pizza for dinner and cake (: Always feels happy after going out with them. Yay! :)God Bless (:
And I really went OC on Saturday night! :D I miss that place so, so much...
♥ 11:35 PM
Ok, I'm going OC this coming Saturday night. (: alone.
I TOTALLY LOVE YESTERDAY! ♥
super super super fun shopping trip with ANNABEL♥
yay! We went to look for Pearlin's present ( hmmm,, am I allowed to blog about it? :P )
I bought a bag with polka dot and bear design which Annabel thought was very kiddy xD IT IS! And when I carry it to school today Kai'en's reaction was " you how old already?! " :P
But I didn't regret , cos while this craziness in me still last, I should make full use of it. HAHAHAHA.
Explains why I pierce my ear again and took neoprints with ANNABEL LOVE even though it cost s $5.50 each. Awwww,,, so ex! BUT NICE!!! as usual xD
It was so much fun sharing with her all my cute and funny experiences at school ( minus all the terrible experience, life in TPJC is quite a blast )
OH! and walking paradise is now shoebag, not redbag anymore. =P you guys know why! Harhars. The funny trick I did to Kai'en and Evi yesterday was uber hilariousssss! XDDD
Yesterday I set a goal for myself, and I achieve it right away early in the morning while walking to classroom with Jiamin and the rest. (: I don't care about the respond, it is the fact that I reacted that has made me feel proud of myself. mau dikacangin ya udah.
This week pass super fast again! ._. Each time I think about PI, time suddenly fly a million times faster. Huaaaaaaaaa T-T
interact bbq tmr! ^^
♥ 8:06 PM
I so realized that my blog has turned too emo recently! bleahhhhhs. :P
Time to switch mod ! :D
Ok, so Im like not suppose to be blogging/facebooking/msn-ing right now. It's 11.40 and I have reading log,Comprehension and Maths tutorial/assignments left to do. How?! But who the heck cares. Lemme share some stuffs ^^
Recently we had common test in TPJC and I just gotten back most of my marks. So far has been quite okay except Chem ):
Physics: 41/50 :D . Chem: 23.5/30. GP- 24/50 LOLOL. Chinese 53/80.
IM SO PROUD OF MY CHINESE MARKS! Cos I slept throughout most of the paper. Physics was rather happy-making too, xcept that I actually lost 4marks due to careless mistakes. =.= =.= =.= And just pass for GP. Lousy! But it's better than what I expected myself to do due to my physical and emotional condition during the GP paper. )); Chem was a tad bit disappointing, I expected better for chem. Awww T-T but I only have myself to blame for not studying. :P
There are Econs and Maths left and both papers...I screwed up XD Just wish me luck !
lalala~ I'm feeling so tired, but euphoric at the same time. Lols.
I love 10S28 !!!
♥ 11:40 PM
Tuhan tolonglah diriku. kuatkan aku, kuatkan aku.
Terima kasih Tuhan(:
Kau s'lalu ada disetiap saatku membutuh bantuan. Kau s'lalu disisiku, memperhatikan gerak-gerik diriku. Betulkah apa yg kulakukan tadi papa? Karena aku menyesal tlah berbuat begitu, penyesalan yg memenuhi benakku. Bgaimana? Apa yg harus kulakukan? hamba meminta padamu o Allah untuk membimbing hamba menuju kebeneran. Untuk membuat pilihan2 yg bener. Kasih sayangmu satu2nya alasan kenapa hamba masih bisa bertahan sampai sekarang. Rasanya sakit sekali..
♥ 8:26 PM
Tuhan tolong hapus ingatanku.It was scorching
hot this morning, but I walk under the
rain this evening ((:
Come and think of it, I don't sound like me anymore. People change right? I haven't been getting angry recently. Quite long, in fact. Other than occasional mood swings in the morning, most of the time it's just suppression and numbness. And of course happiness ! (: It's nice this way I guess, I don't lose my cool the way I used to. Hahaha! And I love to be in control. :)
I don't want her to leave )): Somehow she left a great impact and influence in my life. It's her that brings us this far, that I wonder how are we going to be like without her. How different things are going to be without her, can we survive? It'll be hard. T-T
~ gl buat ntar....
♥ 12:06 AM
Happy, happy birthday to Hidir !!! :D :DSo we meet at AMK hub and went to Mad Jack at bukit timah then back to AMK hub again xD
Hahahahahaa. Im not sharing the secret with anyone, Hidir! You ask that person yourself :P I had quite a fun today.
Chingleong,Annabel,Benedict,Welly and I met earlier to get the sweeeeeeeeeeets :P Ok, so now I just exposed to the whole world that our present is super last minute. Haha! We were panicking when Hidir called to say that he reached already because we haven't even put all the sweets into the super cute dustbin! Yeahhhh~ Hidir got a dustbin for his Bday xD And a yellow rose with a small cute bear that says " happy birthday " . So then we all split up, Benedict and Welly will meet Hidir first and then Annabel,Chingleong and me pretended that we're late. The annabel and I came up from the escalator and just stop there, staring at Hidir xD and we were blocking other people's way. Then chingleong came from another escalator and tgt we give birthday boy his first part of present- the rose and little bear.
That part was pretty retarded I think xD
Catching up was funnnnnn~ I miss them already )): So sad Ninnart,Maruay and Praisely couldn't be with us ): I miss them to the maxxxxx.
Oh, and so sorry Hidir, no cake just now bcause.... xD
Dear shin,
gw gak boleh terpengaruh oleh hal" gitu kan? gw harus pandai menjaga hati. jadi cewe jual mahal dikit donk, bener gak? ((: Tuhan akan membantuku untuk jadi lebih kuat lagi, gw percaya kok . Dan gw akan melaluinya dengan kuat. Iya kan shin? hidup bukan hidup tanpa cobaan, makanya harus pandai menantang donk, Rieka !
terima kasih shin, udah slalu mendengar gw ngoceh yg aneh".. tapi gw gak ada siapa" lgi slain Tuhan dan elo yg bisa gw percayai. gw pengen untuk bisa tidur lelap shin, untuk bisa seperti dulu lagi.. tidur dgn nyenyak tanpa mimpi" yg begitu. either gw ga bisa tidur atau kalaupun bisa tidur dgn nyenyak, gw bakal bangun dgn perasaan yg kacau. tolong shin, gw kepingin lepas dari semua ini, rasanya tercekat banget.. gw harus gimana shin..? duhh, makin dipikirin makin pusing deh. huaaaaaaaa T-T help..
♥ 9:14 PM
I can't live without you.
Take me to your place,
Where our heart belongs together.
Tuhan memang yang terbaik(:
Terima kasih Bapa atas segala kasih yg kau beri kepadaku. Smoga aku bisa tumbuh dibawah bimbingan dan kasih sayangmu. Demi kau aku akan berusaha tuk lebih kuat lgi.. Hanya kaulah satu2nya yg bisa kupercayai saat ini.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDIR ! =D
I finally met Annabel today :) Then for the first time I went to Bethany youth's service. Not bad for a first time ^^ Im going back next weeeeeeeek! =D most probably. Lalala
I didn't study didn't study didn't study .): Reading log this week looks irritating. Haven't touched them yet. Im gonna finish my functions tmr! And econs essay too! idc ! ((((((:
Prologue is a very pretty shop. I shall visit there more often, on my own.
I wanted to go to OC just now, but time forbids me to go.
I miss OC. I miss watching my stars from OC. I miss the breeze on my face at OC.
I miss kamu....
♥ 2:35 AM
This week flew like a rocket! seriously...(:
It passes the moment i blink my eye. xD
Finally! I have a brilliant ( or maybe not so ) idea for my target context ! =P I was so happy when I thought of it last night. It's when I was watching antm and talking to thomas about Coco at the same time that the idea pops into my head. Elatedddddd ! All thanks to the lovely coco x3
Today is quite a light day(; fell asleep during chinese test until the teacher shout 15 minutes left. Aww, then i still left 1 section haven't touch. So quickly rush through it in less than 10 minutes and go back to sleep. I ROX! muahaaha
Happy Birthday Elbi ((:
._. i kinda feel like joining another cca now...
Btw, my prince charming rocks ((: Love her :D
On the bus,
eating Lollipop
Listening to music
I though of that song.
Then it dawned on me
a way to end this doom.mengapa cinta ini, terlarang~
♥ 7:26 PM
Dirimu tak pernah menyadari
Semua yang telah kau miliki
Kau buang aku, tinggalkan diriku
Kau hancurkan aku seakan ku tak pernah ada
Aku kan bertahan
Meski takkan mungkin
Menerjang kisahnya
Walau perih, walau perih
Salahkah aku terlalu cinta
Berharap semua kan kembali
Kau buang aku, tinggalkan diriku
Kau hancurkan aku seakan ku tak pernah ada
Aku kan bertahan
Meski takkan mungkin
Menerjang kisahnya
Walau perih, Walau perih
Aku kan bertahan
Meski takkan mungkin
Menerjang kisahnya
Walau perih
Aku kan bertahan
Meski takkan mungkin
Menerjang kisahnya
Walau perih, walau perih, walau perih, walau perih...
Tuhan tolonglah aku. aku bernapas tapi tidak hidup. hati ini tidak tahan lagi untuk berdetak. semua sudah hancur. Tolonglah lepaskan hamba dari semua ini karena hamba terlalu lemah untuk bisa menahan perasaan ini. Bapa, hamba ingin pulang kesisimu..tidak tahan dengan segala yg terjadi.. bagaimana caranya melepaskan dia dari pikiranku? bgaimana melalui hari2 dengan senyum karena aku ingin membawa kebahagiaan kepada org lain dengan senyumanku tapi aku sendiri tidak bisa senyum dengan bahagia? gimanna?
♥ 5:55 PM
thanks to th person who said this to me:
" Feels like something quite serious happen 2 u... so Yeah... But i cant reali tell cause ur smilin all e time "
didn't know that someone would notice..
but not him.
♥ 8:23 PM
sori mami, aku gak bisa kasih tau alasan knp aku akhir2 ini sedih banget, karena ku tidak mau mengingatkan diri sendiri pada hal2 yang menyedihkan. (:
The book 7 habits of highly effective teens has been a great help in making my choices and helping myself up in such a situation in my life. Also of course, I would very much thank
Vina for all the support and entertainment she brought me while I'm still struggling. Additionally, my lovely class 10S28 who has unknowingly made my life happier. Some of you guys like Jiamin, Kai'en, Dheenah and Tjoa have added more sugar and spices into JC life =P Cos you guys are so fun to be with! But most importantly Im so proud to say Rieka has became so much mature in the process. I won't say I'm fine yet but I'm definitely making my way there. I'll try very very much to be in control with my life, no matter how sucky it seems to turn out to be.
try harder rieka, try harder....
♥ 5:41 PM
sugar,spice and all thing nice.