I believe
You're the only one for me
my Jesus

♥ 3:41 PM

Lord, Lord
take all these away

all these shadows sitting on my shoulders,
take all of them away, away away away.

all the ropes tying me up,
cut all of them off, off off off.

all the pricking nails,
pluck all of them out, out out out.


fill me with Your love,
I wanna live, live to lift Your name high.
don't wanna be afraid.

Thus,
free.

♥ 6:21 PM

♥ 11:36 AM

Things to do after exams:
 change my blog layout
 read
 watch forrest gump alone
 read
 watch time traveller's wife with someone
 read
 fulfill my promise to spend time with someone
 read
 claim someone's dinner promise with me
 read 
 travel to the city to SAC and fulfill my 3 year old longing
 read
 walk walk in singapore with someone
 read
 do some polishing of myself
 and did I mention....read?

♥ 5:53 PM

as I typed this down, my head is throbbing heavily and there is that odd sensation all over my body that arose from the nap I took. It wasn't even a nap, it's a long deep sleep. It's meant to be a 45minutes, after-lunch-before-revision nap. But when the alarm ring at 4, every single cell in my body ache like nobody's business and it forces me into another 1 hour of comatose -.- ok, that was an exaggeration.

But for real, every single ostocytes and sacromeres were wailing in pain. It's like a terrible hangover from the lack of sleep. I don't usually get much disturbance from physical pain and it feels kinda....helpless. The worst thing is, you don't know what the problem is. It's easy to tackle something when you know the root cause but not when the symptom is of unknown origin. It makes everything seems worst. And whatever happened to my "give thanks in every circumstances". I feel like I'm complaining right now. Am I, not?


Typing this down is pointless too, I just felt like I gotta type it down. There's nothing much I can do except to get up and pray and to carry on with my revision. I can only rely on His strength and supernatural power to carry me through this. Gotta be joyful, regardless!!

"...for the joy of the Lord is your strength. " Nehemiah 8:10

don't forget how many times this verse has carry me through so many circumstances!

ok, hang on there, tough girl ^^

bye everyone.

♥ 5:47 PM

just a little stats fact I feel like sharing here.
the country that view my blog the most is now Canada!
and I clearly know who's been stalking me then :P

and the program used to open my blog is very often macintosh.
ahahahah I know who's that too :P



I've been spending 2 days in a new spot somewhere in my favorite place in Singapore.
It's comforting in a way when there are almost no people around. But at times, there are so many people and that makes me feel a little distracted. Wait, that's an understatement. I feel so distracted with so many people around and they are usually just sitting down listening to music or reading a book or reading newspaper and there I am sitting with my digestive system notes with a thick Human Anatomy & Physiology textbook. Not that I don't enjoy my study....but it's a great temptation to do what I want to do T-T
Then again, remember our principle back at the beginning of this semester: to give up freedom for freedom. I have not really inculcated this habit throughout the whole semester too :/ discipline and constant effort and a lot of thinking is required.
For now, I've exceeded my supposed sleep target for 28 minutes! :O
ttfn,
toodles!

♥ 12:29 AM

the thing about pain is
it never really goes away.

even when time passes and the wound is no longer seen
what's been etched there always leave a scar.

even if we can carry on our normal daily activities
the pain will resurface at time, pricking you somewhere
in your head, in your chest.

the pain never really goes away.

it only fades
but it's still there.

♥ 11:20 AM

♥ 8:52 PM

now I found someone who figured out
why I kept my heart ever so guarded

&I found someone who stays
despite all I have been through

One and only one who knows
how to calm the blizzard in the snow

someone who's ever so faithful
in times when I was really still a fool

now that I've seen myself 
I take two steps back, or three
every single part of me
I long to praise and exalt thee. 

♥ 11:36 AM

It's kinda funny in a way.
That the very first step to be stronger
is to accept how powerless you are.

♥ 10:28 PM

ironically, there is a space in my heart that has been filled up
has been filled up with something
something called loss.

ironically.



"the road less traveled by"
does not just refer to the path we choose that goes against conformity.

it may also refers to those places that you have been to, alone. where no one has gone to, too. and you can't go there with anyone but solitude. you are the only one allowed entry to that route, the only holding that entrance pass. and no matter how somebody want to be there with you, you know you can't bring someone else there. it's a road you have to travel alone despite the uncertainties that may lay ahead. 



thanks to Sabrina, I discovered that it's fine to be unable to break down in front of someone. it's fine that I'm unable to cry in front of people. Some places, you really gotta travel alone. 

and what compels me to talk to Sabrina, must be God's voice.

♥ 11:01 PM

♥ 1:25 AM