The day was over when I said it was a beyond-the-scale rating,

that day I made a decision to be joyful ^^

despite the strange symptom that my hypotension is showing in the morning.

nevertheless,

joyfulness is a choice!

I didn't hit my initial target of 50 strangers to smile at, I got about 40ish. But I talked to a nice elderly lady and somewhat she made my day (:

In addition, the fellowship with fellow FA mates today totally rocked my day. Including the part about getting lost during the journey of walking where my legs brought me to, before the meet-ups.

sometimes, we just don't want to know where we are heading. we just let our legs (or imagination) bring us somewhere we have never been to to end up somewhere we never thought we would be. as I look back, I contemplated upon my mistakes and I want to so much just let my imagination design the life I want to live. I want so, so much, to just have the capability and capacity to go where my imagination allows me to. this brought me back, so much, to the theme that I was given to at the beginning of this new journey I get in life: giving up freedom for freedom, as someone inflicted this thought into my head some 2 months ago. it's a theme that I pretty much fade away from as weeks pass. to link this back to my initial idea... I gotta acquire as much knowledge and skills and principles first (giving up the freedom to time I have right now at this stage of my life) before I have the "raw materials" to freely design my life according to my imagination. and most importantly, I have to inculcate the right values and guidance from God and fellow seniors, before I have the wisdom and ability to freely choose the life I want to lead according to the equipped imagination and creativity I got in my head. all seems to make so much sense right now!


gdnight ^^

♥ 2:03 AM