how fckd up it is.
when your day started with a surprise and ends with a shock.
and in between, it's filled with blocked nose, sore throat and fever.
all you wanted was to be alone but you have no choice but to face others. you dont wanna talk to anyone but you must.

thank you, i appreciate it very much, having someone like you to feel that way towards me. but i feel terrible seeing you sad.
do you remember i told you th few times that i cried and you were like " huh you so easily cry one ah " . will you guess that i will cry because of this too? i feel so terrible seeing someone sad, to the extent that i dont wanna talk to anyone today and i cried. i really dont like it, each time something like this happen. i feel obliged to do something. ): it's like this impending mania in my head. sheesh. if only i can call and talk instead, if i have my voice w me. this sucks like mad.

plus what my mom told me really fml upside down. why can't i go visit her for th last time? i didnt even got th chance to talk to her for th last time, now i can't send her away too. the last time i saw her was at hospital? when was that, almost half a yr ago? fml. why do this always happen to me, whenever i wanna do something, it's always too late for me to do so.

what am i supposed to do?

♥ 11:07 PM