we'll take a small step at a time,
down that long, tedious track.
we'll take our time,
life's not a sprint but a journey.
show me who you are,
and we'll take my way.
I'll do the leading,
to where we're gonna stay.
♥ 11:46 PM
IF HE DOESNT CHASE YOU WHEN YOU WALK AWAY, KEEP WALKING
And see how far YOU can go :D
♥ 12:52 AM
for the past few days, it has been pretty angsty for me. yeah well, you can see it very well from my previous posts. seems like everything's going wrong and i was fighting hard to survive on my own. i try try try to rely on myself but i fail fail fail. until that morning when i decide to surrender to God. the very very uncanny calmness that surrounds me all of a sudden was something that i havent experienced for some time.. it was like last year this time, then the song was playing on my head all over again. it's like an alarm clock that woke me up from all the daze. truly, nothing else is more powerful than our heavenly Father up there. i'm so very thankful ^^
♥ 12:39 AM
life is not a snapshot, we'll look at the bigger picture (:
♥ 11:06 AM
how fckd up it is.
when your day started with a surprise and ends with a shock.
and in between, it's filled with blocked nose, sore throat and fever.
all you wanted was to be alone but you have no choice but to face others. you dont wanna talk to anyone but you must.
thank you, i appreciate it very much, having someone like you to feel that way towards me. but i feel terrible seeing you sad.
do you remember i told you th few times that i cried and you were like " huh you so easily cry one ah " . will you guess that i will cry because of this too? i feel so terrible seeing someone sad, to the extent that i dont wanna talk to anyone today and i cried. i really dont like it, each time something like this happen. i feel obliged to do something. ): it's like this impending mania in my head. sheesh. if only i can call and talk instead, if i have my voice w me. this sucks like mad.
plus what my mom told me really fml upside down. why can't i go visit her for th last time? i didnt even got th chance to talk to her for th last time, now i can't send her away too. the last time i saw her was at hospital? when was that, almost half a yr ago? fml. why do this always happen to me, whenever i wanna do something, it's always too late for me to do so.
what am i supposed to do?
♥ 11:07 PM
never seems enough for me.
there're just so many things to do and i dont know where to start. I really don't have any motivation to study right now. Econs test is tomorrow. I already screwed up chem and probably not gonna do well for physics. It's not a matter of having too many things to do anymore, it's more about getting my priorities right. Recently I've been thinking about it, what matters and what don't. So I figured that I've been spending far too much of my time on things that are unnecessary and spending a whole load of my mind thinking of stuffs I shouldn't even bother about. But I'm obliged to do so, ain't I? I have an obligation. I realized that the more I seek for freedom, the more asphyxiating I feel. what's wrong? haha.
each time i think about it, i feel like crying. crying at the time i've wasted and moments i didnt treasure and memories lost. D:
things will never be the same w you, i guess.
hahahahaha
♥ 8:15 PM
sugar,spice and all thing nice.
