After reading 'someone's' blog, i'm inspired to write this short post about my goal again. Hmm, Actually each time I read this particular person's blog, I'm inspired. Not gonna mention who this particular person is, although well, this person might just guess I'm talking about him/her.
HAHA.

So the post got me thinking about my goal again. In fact, what I have experienced these few days got me thinking back about what I really want in my life.

Firstly, the release of the results slip for the year on Thursday. BBBBCD. Where can I go with this kind of results? Indeed, in TPJC, this results that I got would be noted as one of the better among my peers. However, who are we really competing with? Ultimately, it's not the TPJC paper that we're taking, it's the Cambridge A level examination. Taking a TPJC paper, being one of the less prestigious JCs in Singapore, and not even scoring an A is very, very demoralizing for me. I'm not trying to be snobbish, but it's way under my expectation. In TPJC, it's a totally different environment from where I came from, 4a. In 4A, I was deemed one of the slackest people in the class. In TPJC, I still slack, but people labelled me 'competitive'. HA! We're competing with schools like NJC, not among our fellow TPJCians. If you think I'm competitive? You have not seen the world.

Secondly, the sermon during YRC on Saturday about getting our priotities right. I realized that I have a big problem placing what's on top of my priority list. Which lead to my difficulty in time management. And yes, I know that blogging at 2am on a school night is an epitome of my weakness in time managing. What Pastor Omar mentioned is true. If you can't get your priorities right, you will never have enough time to do everything. I pondered upon the amount of time I wasted using computer everyday. I pondered upon what I could've done with those time that I've wasted. I'm going to spend some time in the next few days thinking of what I really want in order for me to achieve my goal and how to work my way there.

Next, I tried reading up on the note halogenoalkanes and realized that I have 0 knowledge on SN1 and SN2 reactions and half of my lecture note is blank! :O I couldn't study and almost panicked because that means I will not be able to complete the tutorial questions before I go to the tutorial session later. T-T Luckily I made a phone call to Jeremy which finally calmed down my nerves.

There're many other things that happened recently, which makes me contemplate upon my actions these few months. Like how I lose focus halfway throughout my journey of studying for promos. It's like, the last few weeks before promos, I totally lose interest in studying altogether. The boost that I got after getting back midyear results just disappeared. )= I figure, it's time for me to get back on the track to achieving that dream of mine. Yup, now that promos/Alevel Chinese/PW are over. Next stop: A levels. I believe I can cross this huge stone and go to overseas to achieve my goal! :) Nothing is impossible! ^^ gambatte neh!


Dear heavenly Father,
I ask for strength for me to carry on even when I'm weak.that you will empower me with the ability to stay on my track.to not lose focus on my goal, and most importantly be wiser in my choice. thank you father for listening to my prayer. in Jesus name, amen.

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