4 down, 3 to go.
Chemistry paper totally killed me today. First time ever I did not finish a Chemistry paper. First time I answered Chemistry questions without knowing what I'm actually writing. First time I felt so inconfident about a Chemistry paper. First time ever I left blanks on Chemistry paper. This is the worst Chemistry paper I've ever done in my entire life. How am I gonna survive A levels?
Is this really the path that I should take, can I survive?
They say " in JC, failing is a normal thing "
But I really don't want to fail. Failing is one thing, failing in a place where I don't look up to is another. Time and again I want to be serious but I always failed. I guess it's me whom I have to defeat first. ):
Maths tomorrow. Can survive? My confidence level is like as low as the ground after I got defeated by Chemistry just now. I hope everything works.
Through you, I can do anything.
Through you, I can do all things.
Father, coz it's you who gave me strength.
Nothing is Impossible.
♥ 6:05 PM
1 Cor 13: 4-8Rieka is patient, Rieka is kind. Rieka does not envy, Rieka does not boast, Rieka is not proud.
Rieka is not rude, Rieka is not self-seeking, Rieka is not easily angered, Rieka keeps no record of wrongs.
Rieka does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
Rieka always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Rieka never fails. But where there are prophecies, she will cease; where there are tongues, she will be stilled; where there is knowledge, she will pass away. I have replaced all the *Love* with my name.
Now, replace all the *Rieka*s with your own name =P
hehehe.
I have a very fruitful day today. Lord has shown to be faithful every second of the day. Why should I ever worry knowing that Father is watching every single thing I do and ensure that I'm safe. He showered me with such unconditional love, it is indescribable. I'm so happy today. I know, and don't know, the reason for such happiness. ^^
rain down on me.
♥ 3:09 PM
stam tara, pomisorwa
stamta tara stara pomisorwa.
I'm so blown away.
♥ 11:47 PM
BYE BYE ECONS! I'M READY TO FLUNK YOU ON MONDAY! T-T
4 weeks of holiday and up to now I haven't read a single thing about econs.
HATE IT! HATE IT!!!! ):
T-T
♥ 2:53 PM
Choosing between something you like, and something you have to do.
Should I sleep now and wake up at 2.30 to watch Germany's match or should I just have sufficient sleep to prepare myself for intensive revision tomorrow?
measly choices, big consequences.
._.
♥ 1:36 AM
Hi.
Have been having very queer dreams recently. 3 days in a row. =\
Very, very queer. And the last one, was awkward too. And saw her in the morning. =\ Scary. Scared. Omg.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
=D
I love being out with Annabel, somehow it gives me peace. ^^ Tmr, again. Somehow, I need to be more conscious.
Do you believe what's karma? Somehow I believe in Cause and Effect. What goes around, comes around. Probably now it's my turn.To.Face.The.Music.The Notebook is a very nice novel. And guess what? Taylor Lautner's favorite movie is The Notebook! Omg! So sweet! And it's so coincidental that I'm currently reading that novel when annabel told me about it being his favorite movie. AHHH! I wanna faint because of the temperature.
xD
♥ 10:56 PM
It's been a few days since I've been out a lot and didn't spend much time with my G. I think I'll spend more time with it later. G, I miss you )):
I needa revise now, I haven't been revising. Keeps on drifting away from my goal. Less and less motivation everyday. T-T
Motivational blog, please update more motivational post for me to read so that I get motivated.
._.
♥ 2:49 PM
Hi Maruay, Happy Birthday ;)
I wish I could upload pictures but blogger is forbidding me to do so. ): 19 is such a big number I can't imagine myself to be. But you're 19! How old you are ;D Muahahahaha. However we all know that you still have a mindset of 9, which is a very very very good thing to me! Yay~!!
AHHHH. Can't do it, I'm not good with words. If only I can upload picturessssss! Huh ): So i'll stop here.
Happy Birthday Bitch XD
♥ 1:21 AM
There's one thing I never do on my blog, to complain.
But now, you're really pushing me to the extend.
♥ 12:10 PM
Sometimes,
ignorance is not a bliss, indifference is bliss.
;)
Turn a weakness into a habit, not someone.
Girls outing yesterday! :D Met up with Eileen, Brenda and Sheryl @ kallang leisure park after my wasted trip to school. Which I don't wish to elaborate as it is totally a screw-up-thing ==" Then we went ice skating! :P omg. So glad that they compliment my jacket :P Aww...~ xDDD HAHA! And among the 4 of us only Eileen knows how to skate properly!!! ==" Seriously! HAHA! But luckily I didn't fall :D And after an hour of iceskating the long-awaited Annabel Lee and Hsiao Hui finally came! Huff.... And join in the fun xD
Eileen and I keep on going crazy over someone. Awwwww.... can't help it, that being is just too cute. HAHA! Too bad, confirm younger than us. ._. Heeheeees.
After ice skating we went to pastamania for dinner. Annabel, Eileen and I ordered the same thing. Whooo~! A very satisfying gossiping session with the girls =P Muahahaha. So long since I've had such fun. Then we took some pictures, which is still inside my phone and Eileen's camera. Ima upload them soon (:
And, Happy Belated Birthday Eileen! =D Hope you had a fun day with us. Hang out soon! ^^
w love,
Rieka
♥ 11:09 PM
"Sometimes You put walls up not to keep people out, but to see Who cares enough to Break ϟ them down"
-by Michelle Phan.
But sometimes, you just want to keep certain people from being an obstruction. They just have to figure out which category they fall under.
I realized, the turquoise on my fingernails look like a darker shade of TPJC uniform. Ew.
♥ 12:17 PM
Lord do I keep on with this habit or do I change it?
No, not everything I do is what you inferred me to be. I'm an extrovert, but I don't like telling people about my problem. How ironic. (:
Is it habit, preference, or a weakness?
♥ 11:18 PM
parahhh, rieka lu aneh banget sihhh! ._.
=D
SO HAPPY! Senengnya :D akhirnya~! ^^
lalala~
Bangun pagi" to go to church somehow suddenly felt like a habit already. Like, it used to be so hard to get up but today is like, don't need to drag myself to wake up. :) So I guess it's a good thing? Yay~!
And today is a happy day, as I learnt how to play one song in guitar, within tonight :P
(:
♥ 2:02 AM
The more I tell myself I shouldn't think, the more I think. ._. uh oh.. no I shouldn't! I shouldn't think!
Bisa jadi gilaaaa :\
Lord I surrender to you, take charge of my life and every single action I do. Be my master in everything and lead me to the truth. Hanya Engkaulah Tuhan satu-satunya yang bisa kupercaya. Jika ada Tuhan aku tidak akan takut lagi. There'll be no more fear and worry as I put all my faith in Him. I believe.
Terima kasih Tuhan telah membuka mataku untuk memilih apa yg terbaik untuk diri sendiri. Membuat keputusan yg benar untuk hidup sendiri. Dan memberi kekuatan untuk bertahan dengan keputusan ini. (:
Hello. be strong ok?._. If anything I'm here for you.parahh..bener" bisa jadi
gila!
♥ 1:12 AM
IM LIKE THE DUMBEST ANIMAL ON EARTHH! LIKE !@#$%^&*&^%$#@#$%^&^%$# DUMB! WTH!!!!!!!!!!! T-T
Ok so I woke up at 5.20 am this morning. Supposedly, I'm going back Indo today. Everything was ready and I even spent $15.50 on cab to harbourfront. So I reached harbourfront and get my boarding pass and everything. " yay! I'm going back Indo!^^ " was what I thought as I queued up towards the immigration check in. I was so excited to go back Indo especially after the phone call I made with my mom right before I started to queue up. I walked towards the check-in counter and pass the lady my passport. I was so ready to go. So. Ready. To. Go. BUT. The lady saw my green student pass, take a look at it and say " your student pass has expired " Like, wth! >.< Then the staffs of the immigration started passing my passport around and checking and blahblah~ This is the conclusion : I'm to stay in Singapore to extend my already-expired-for-1mth student pass. If I want to go back Indo? Sure, can. Fine $300. ==" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I almost screamed at them.
Parah parah parah kan!!!!!!! T-T
It's seriously a lesson learned, the hard way. I don't think Ima go back Indo this holiday already. ):
♥ 9:17 AM
I'm so happy to know you guys, really. People like you guys made my day (: Somehow, my life is so blissful just knowing that I have you guys in my life. And you guys know who you are (:
& I'm cool about that, really :D
nonchalant
unimpressed
=="
Maruay need to get a life. Or rather, get himself a dictionary.
xD
Off to Indo~! in like a few hours time. I'm gonna sleep for 2+ hours and wake up and get myself ready for Indo. Whew.. A change in suasana. xD I hope I can study well there. SA! ):
lalala~
♥ 2:34 AM
weird. :)
MARUAY IS BACK! like. OMGGG. I still find it..kinda unbelievable that Maruay is actually in Singapore right now. SO FAT! *not shock* (=_=) I kinda get a jolt of shock when I realize of Maruay's physical existence just now XD I THOUGHT YOU DIDN'T EXIST!!!!! .____.
Went back to Mayflower today after I accompanied Dheenah to esplanade to get postcards and souvenirs for her trip ^^ I still love esplanade. (:
So I finally got back my O level cert :D I finally go back MF! I finally ate the food at the coffeeshop opposite MF! I LOVE MF MAN! Seriously. I miss MF! Everything there, the people, surrounding, the smell, the air and the breeze.. I miss them so much. Everything is just so nostalgic. ._. And while I was on the bus ride on my way back home, memories of secondary school just came pouring back. If I could go back and tell myself back then to cherish the time there instead of complaining every single day about how much I want to get out of Secondary school.. Ah well. It's always like this. :/
Then went to Annabel's house to watch brides war. OMG! It's really nice and touching.
" In this world, there are some bonds which are not meant to be broken and will never be broken " Ahh~ I miss my best friend.
" you don't alter Vera to fit you, you alter yourself to fit Vera " wow xD Maruay and I absolutely love this line! :P
We celebrated Maruay's early birthday with Ichigo cheesecake :P So candid, he was teaching me how to play wake me up on september ends on piano when the 'normal people' started singing birthday song out of nowhere :O Hehe. THE ICHIGO CHEEZECAKE WAS PRETTY! Absolutely love it :D
Annabel and I then went to do manicure at amk hub at night, accompanied by Maruay and Priscilla. (: toooo long a story to share everything ._. It was nostalgic, really really nostalgic.
Btw annabel got blue fingernails and I got green/turqoise fingernails xD
I'll upload the photos taken soon :D
♥ 1:21 AM
slowly, fading.. away & away.
Absolutely.
I'm certain, as I despise uncertainties.
I went to gym today! YAYYYY~! Met up with Annabel Lee at Toa Payoh MRT after studying at starbucks with Jennifer, Ko Steven n Ko Hendra. Then we bought Vina's cake while waiting for Hsiao Hui to arrive. Hmm, coincidentally met Sheryl at MRT station as well! She didn't change much xD Just the way ShaoQin loves her. So we played around in gym. Mann, my stamina deproved ): Then we had dinner at Mos burger. Sinful food after Gym is always okay :P
And then another study session by the pool! Taught Erick add.Maths n Physics a little. Hmm, I miss being in Sec4 ): I miss studying for O levels. Now, the thought of studying for midyear for JC is a thousand time worse that studying for O levels.
I need my motivation back. T-T
Yesterday played pool with WQ and SQ. HA! I got treated by both because I win against them xD Improvement is sweett..
bye
bye
bye
bye
^^
♥ 1:52 AM
I don't wanna miss a single thing you do, tonight.
((:
HELLO STALKERS!
Today I just found out that my blog have secret readers. Hahahaha! laen kali kalau liat blogku tag donkkkk biar aku tau xDD
Yesterday didn't study with Annabel in the end, but we carry on with the shopping plan. Forever21!!!! YRC, then dinner at Sushi Tei . Shopping after dinner!! :) shopping, shopping, shopping ♥
Today was fun^^
FA was about having peace individually and peace as a community. In conclusion: sharing food= having peace :P with artificial looking green seaweed pringles being passed around ^^
Masih banyak yg harus gw pelajari dan mengerti. Tapi dengan Tuhan, pasti bisa..
♥ 1:58 AM
The sacrifice I made by giving up something for a greater cause has paid off, it came back with a greater reward.
Learn to let go, and you will receive something better.
" u've wasted my time " - golden phrase. (",
I feel so happy somehow. ^^
Today's been wasted off with sleeping, com, then went out. At least, I went out, or I would've died of boredom at home. It kills me T-T
So I have plan to skip school again today but just for precaution I set my alarm clock at 7, an obvious indication that I made up my mind to skip Physics at 8. ;D Then I remembered that Issac's maths notes is still with me ==" So I gotta drag myself out of bed and go to school for an hour just for the sake of returning Issac his maths notes. LOL. Bad, bad hair day made me resort to something I've never thought I would do to my hair. XD
The whole afternoon was spent sleeping. I wasted too much unnecessary time sleeping, this is bad. Then out to orchard in the evening. ^^ Yay! I won 4 pool matches against someone. Either I've improved vastly or... x) Muahaha.
But it satisfy my craving of pool! Then went to OC to search for my star, but I couldn't find it. Hey, OC's significance in my life has changed from what it has been a few weeks ( or months ) ago. But I still want to see my star. MY star! :P
Then at around 11.30 we went home. ((:
So that kinda sums up my whole day. I'm gonna make it up by studying with Annabel tomorrow and I'm actually pretty excited about it! ^^ Yay! Study and then shopping after that. How about that? And I'm gonna meet daddy later on to get money to buy my new laptop! Hmm, that arises a new dilemma for me. Should I get a Macbook? Everything seems perfect except for the fact that it is an apple product and all the while I've been going around announcing that I don't want to be enslaved apple products. And I sounds so hypocritical if I suddenly got myself a Macbook with free iTouch. HAHA! But if I don't, I am clueless about what other products to get! help! ):
HAHA
♥ 3:18 AM
):
stay away from home, stay away from com, stay away from trellis.
I should just not go home anymore. ._.
help! T-T
♥ 1:21 AM
yuuki loves zero.
^^
Things like that are inevitable. There are moments where you make a wrong move that cause you to go " oh, wtf! " but no matter what, don't fret. Life still goes on, and it's things like that which made life, life. When you look back later on, you will see that it's just a trivial matter and laugh your head off at how infantile you were. Just smile and let it happen, it adds sugar and spices to your life. :D
I can't wait to go back Indo next week! (:
♥ 12:29 AM
sugar,spice and all thing nice.
